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Spiritual Journal | August 31, 2015




I have been waking again throughout the night …to thoughts, words, visions. Remember something about mom, and tomatoes (again) and numbers…a vision with numbers…like a house number… 3133.

Maybe there is a message for me with the numbers

Repeating Angel Numbers – 3’s and 1’s (31, 331, 313, 311 etc)

Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: Repeating Angel Numbers – 3’s and 1’s (31, 331, 313, 311 etc)

I woke early this morning feeling inspired….but now I’m suddenly feeling a little lost? Not sure why…I made my To Do list ☺. Think I will meditate on it…

Meditation Notes:

• Left leg – pain shooting up calf
M-name (like Mike)
• ‘It’s all about trust’…’Letting go is hard – but it doesn’t mean you don’t care’….’Heal’
• ‘dawn’
‘Eyes’ – reflections of things
Scratchy throat
• ♫your love is like bad medicine♪
• attention to right side of face
• Mild pain across temples & bridge of nose
Itchy feeling
• its ‘zapping your energy’
• Something about fake hair….how fake a girl’s hair is
S-name (like Susan)

Yesterday I meditated to Heal and Balance, and to release. I probably should have skipped trying to write during today’s meditation, because the whole thing just felt a little… off.

But today’s meditation did renew my inspiration. And  I have decided…finally…to get my Book of Lessons updated. It is a priority now. And  I think it is long overdue.

Goodbye, procrastination…. I’m ready to let you go!


Spiritual Journal August 3, 2015


stockvault-retro-alarm-clock131462 I think I woke up every single hour throughout the night last night.  First I was too hot. Then I was hungry. Then I had a headache….Finally, at 5:11 AM, I decided to get up. I made a pot of coffee – then ended up falling asleep on the couch for a couple of hours. I slept on the same area  of the sectional where the back tapping occurred and the apparitions appeared.  I didn’t see  or feel anything, though – I just slept.

So, what’s with all of this waking during the night? It’s been going on for at least as long as I’ve been journaling…and probably started happening frequently and somewhat regularly just shortly before that.  I don’t have any concerns it’s related to any type of personal health issue. So I accept it for what it is….   According to the Website The Shift Has Hit The Fan (love the name ☺), it’s just one of many ascension symptoms

Changing sleep patterns: restlessness, hot feet, waking up two or three times a night. Feeling tired after you wake up and sleepy off and on during the day. There is something called the Triad Sleep Pattern that occurs for many: you sleep for about 2-3 hours, wake up, go back to sleep for another couple of hours, wake again, and go back to sleep again. For others, the sleep requirements have changed. You can get by on less sleep. Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state….” Read more here – Source: The most comprehensive list of Ascension Symptoms | The Shift Has Hit The Fan

I’ve learned to respect this pattern of waking through the night. It just is. I do try to remember to journal when it happens…because I have this strong feeling I will find a pattern –  one probably related to the moon.

I’m going to try to meditate now…even though I have a mild headache. Hoping I will meditate it away.

Meditation Notes:
Left upper arm aches…into shoulder
• Song ♫Toy Soldiers♪ (Eminem) pops into my head
• Vision: black and white circles
• something ‘getting better now’
Jim [or J-name]
• Heard “it’s going to rain”
• Song lyric ♫ when it’s time for leavin’, I hope you’ll understand, that I was born a ramblin’ man♪ [The Allman Brothers Band]

END…Thank You. My headache is gone. I hope it doesn’t rain, though. ☺

Spiritual Journal July 20, 2015

Monday – Happy Birthday SJ ♥

I woke around 3:00 AM and lay awake for about an hour before finally drifting back to sleep. In the hour I was awake, I became aware of the ‘energy surges’ that have started again. Hot flashes, heat flashes, powers surges…whatever you choose to call them, they’re back.

It’s 12:22 PM as I sit to meditate. Almost immediately I get the Elton John song lyric ♫ It’s sad, so sad…it’s a sad, sad situation – and it’s getting more and more absurd ♪ – and I understood the significance of this song in my head.

Meditation Notes:

• Something about somebody ‘washing (his) finger(s) all night long’
• (sudden thought about today’s horoscope – feels important)
Vision: flower – Black Eyed Susan…just 1 [I have always referred to this flower as a Brown Eyed Susan, though ☺]
• Got the word ‘purple’
• Vision: like a fat block letter…capital V [maybe a roman numeral 5?]
• Song lyric ♫strawberry fields forever ♪
• Got word and saw the color ‘Violet!’…feel happy – smiling

Today’s Horoscope

I try to make a point to look at my horoscope every day, and because I was born on the cusp, I make a point to read both the Libra and Scorpio horoscope via an app called The DailyHoroscope by Comitic.

Here is today’s Libra horoscope, the one that feels important …. “You have set yourself a very lofty goal in your work life, Libra. Your ambition is strong, and you are a very driven and determined person. Even though you are surely capable of attaining this goal, you may have underestimated what it will take to get there. Beyond the connections you will need to make and the investment of yourself you will have to make, this will also require a lot of study and sacrifice. You can do this, but don’t do it wearing your rose-colored glasses. Face it realistically and with hope. The challenges will be positive if you handle them optimistically.”


Black Eyed Susan is the flower of the Solar Plexus. The Solar Plexus chakra is associated with personal power, identity, and sovereignty. Read more about Flower Symbolism here.

stockvault-rainbow-clouds143806Purple…or Indigo, and Violet: Purple is associated with the Brow, or 3rd Eye, chakra – vision, intuition, perception. Violet is associated with the Crown chakra – connection to creator, higher self, spirit. Read more about The Spiritual Meaning of Colors here.

Spiritual Journal July 17, 2015


Bobby Pins: This morning I woke to something about ‘bobby pins’…and the word stuck with me until I wrote it down.

‘The girls’ will be over this evening. Just 3 of us this time, though. And M. is still waiting for her new grand baby to arrive, so I have a feeling she won’t make it. I did look back through my journal – for the entries for or about her (M.) There are many – from January through July of this year. So many possibilities – I got lost trying to make sense of  them. Overwhelmed. So I stopped and put it all away. It shouldn’t have to be this difficult. I don’t want it to be this difficult. I want to just ‘get it’…finally. But I know it doesn’t work that way. The only one who can really connect to what I received is M.

I meditated for 30 minutes today. I did not write any notes in my journal during. I feel energized! I have lot’s to do!


Spiritual Journal July 8, 2015


The cats woke me in the middle of the night…meowing intently… at something. The walls? The corners? The light switch in the hallway right outside the bedroom door? I don’t know – maybe a new bug has invaded their territory. Whatever it was, they sure wanted someone to know about it.


And this morning, my son made a point of letting me know he couldn’t sleep last night ..because it was unbearably hot in his bedroom.  I thought this was odd because the house seems really comfortable to me. Then I thought about his bedroom windows – and the thermal, room-darkening curtains on them. Well gosh, son – open the curtains so some air can flow through! But why does this seem familiar to me? Then I realized – yesterday, during meditation

• something about ‘curtains’
• ‘stifling hot’
Testing me…always testing me.

Earlier meditation for me today…back to my old ‘normal’ – if only for a day.

Meditation Notes: 9:50-10:24 AM
• $4040
Mary or M-name
• Song lyric ♫moves like Jagger♪
• Attention to feet
‘every little thing is something’
laundry’ (feels like stuff I’m supposed to take care of)
• (one thing) came in 2x – then felt & saw brightness explode in my head

Journal Notes June 23, 2015


I think I am waking again throughout the night. No – I know I am. What I’m not doing is looking at the clock when I wake. But my sleep is restless. Something about this new energy…it is different. Unfamiliar. It is sad – and is making me feel ‘lost’. I need to smudge…asap….to make sure no negative energy sneaked into the house, on or with someone.

As I am preparing to meditate, I suddenly remember a vision I had. I think it was a vision…or maybe part of a dream. I’m not even sure when I had this vision or dream – I just remember it. It was two males standing in front of an automobile with its hood up. One of the males took the radiator cap off and radiator fluid exploded onto him. I think my hubby was one of the males, and either my brother-in-law or my son was the other.

My meditation notes (below) consisted of a list of ideas about a potential business opportunity with family members (not a tattoo parlor, though! ☺)

Meditation Notes:
• Relax. Allow. Trust.
Vision: scrolls
• CREATE: Feel. Happy.
• ‘it’s all about the atmosphere’
• list of things

END….Scrolls and tattoos?  SYMBOLIC?
Feeling super motivated! Thank You ♥

Journal Notes June 18, 2015


Yesterday I did not write in my journal.  I spent the day doing yard work, and the evening working on feedback for both the readings I received as well as the two I gave.


Today I am being prompted (with the thought) to finish what I am referring to as my Book of Lessons. I have only captured the lessons through October 2014, so there is much catching up to do! I am sure there is a reason I am being guided to continue this.  I must at least bring the list up-to-date, because I am sure my lessons or not yet finished. And I must review them. And I must trust.

Meditation Notes: 12:15 – 12:58 PM

‘allows you to know stuff [sic] about people’
• ‘Discretion’ –‘Important’ {TY} GUIDANCE
• Song lyric ♫Let’s Dance
• Feeling of excited anticipation
Indian chief – white feathers
Dancing Thunder  
• ♫put on your red shoes and dance with me♪
Dorothy – OZ
• Trust Always. Don’t try to rationalize. {TY} GUIDANCE
‘sending thoughts’
• Top of head left side – ITCHY
• ♫let’s dance♪ (Okay ☺)
‘magic’ ‘alchemy’ ‘moonlight’
‘don’t laugh’feels ‘serious’
• Attention to throat/upper chest
Outside…at night…I’m supposed to be
• ‘already at a higher vibration’
God. Know. Within.
Vision: looked like a string of little blue kite shaped objects
• Prick sensation on left foot
• (Suddenly remember) waking to a vision: looked like a silver (tin) bucket with very clear water…another object (ring) sitting in the center of the water-filled bucket – something in the ring
• M-name
Vision:  BIG (tree or plant) root coming out of the ground
Vision: gathering sticks, twigs, branches
‘nervous’ feeling through chest – like fear
Vision: looked like a fern leaf
Vision: cherry tree (cherries? or fuchsia pink flowers)
• Heard “it’s not my turn, is it?”
Vision: black and white ‘finger prints’ – like a pattern, design , artwork
• ‘I’d say – if this stuff doesn’t match mine….’ [huh?]
Vision: garden hoses

END…I definitely FELT guidance was being offered to me today.  ♥ But the visions... I have been outside doing a lot of yard work this week – trimming shrubs and flowers, pulling weeds, taking down some tree limbs, etc. How many of my visions are just replaying these activities for me?

{TY} indicates I acknowledge and give thanks for the message or lesson
[bracketed comments are notes added after meditation]
(parenthesis notations are typically written during meditation)

Journal Notes June 14, 2015

Sunday FUN Day! ☼☼☼

Today’s Angel Numbers: 1023;

Read more about these Numbers at the links below…

Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: ANGEL NUMBER 1023

Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: ANGEL NUMBER 1111

I woke this morning to pain in my right eye, ear, and the right side of my throat. Oh no! This CANNOT be mine! Luckily, the pain subsided as the day progressed, but was replaced with Charley Horse pain in my legs and feet. I started drinking cucumber water this last week, and my water intake is much higher than normal –  so it makes no sense to me that I would be having these muscle spasms.

No meditation today…it is Sunday Fun Day! And I’m sure Sunday Fun Day will make any aches and pains go away ☺.


Journal Notes June 1, 2015


Today I woke to a feeling of a ‘fresh start’ – and it’s especially appealing after last week. It’s as if what I experienced in DC…the history, architecture, the energy…has sobered me as well as revitalized me.

Today is a milestone for me. I left Corporate America a year ago today …after 31 years of employment. I have been at home since – and this last year has been one of the best of my life. How my world has changed! I like this new reality I live in…a LOT! Happy Anniversary to me. ☺


As I acknowledge this milestone I am suddenly struck by the number… 31!

This number has appeared frequently since late last year.  I first got  the number 1931 in December, then 31.82 in January . The number 31 appeared again during meditation on January 27th  as well as on February 13 (which is 31 reversed), and it appeared frequently on March 9th .

Well, I was 19 years old when I started my 31 year career in corporate America – just after graduating high school in 1982.  Hmmmm…..

So, is there symbolic or spiritual significance to this number?

Source: Meaning of the Number 30 and 31 in the Bible

“31 in Scripture: One of the Hebrew names of God is El, composed of the Hebrew letters Lamed (representing 30) and Aleph (representing 1), which totals to the number 31. Josiah, considered the best king of Judah after Israel split into two nations, began his reign at the age of eight and ruled for 31 years (640 to 609 B.C.). One of the most commonly occurring names in God’s word is Moses, which appears in 31 books. One of most frequently mentioned women in Scripture is Rebekah (Isaac’s wife), whose name appears 31 times. The book of Luke contains materials from 31 Old Testament books, the second highest in the New Testament.”

Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: ANGEL NUMBER 31

“Angel Number 31 is an indication from your angels that they are helping you to gain a positive and optimistic outlook and are helping to empower you so that you can walk your chosen path with confidence and grace. Be prepared to expand and develop your personal spirituality in new and exciting ways.”


It is chilly this morning – only 48º outside with an expected high of 60º. I hope, after the extreme heat of last week, the outdoor temperature will feel refreshing.

Meditation Notes:

  • attention to left ear
  • hear ‘seagulls’…feels like at the beach/ocean/shoreline
  • quick nauseous then fearful feeling
  • heart is pounding
  • heard “….my behavior
  • heard “you might learn something
  • Oct 31st
  • middle of back – left side – twitch then tingly
  • sensation around throat
  • S-name
  • daughter / loss
  • feeling like ‘shocked’ [about something]
  • coolness up the back of the right leg
  • J-name
  • pain in head – above brow line then through temples
  • attention to right ear
  • body feels very tense (relax)
  • feels like ‘trying too hard’


Journal Notes May 22, 2015


New Moon energy is with me…mixing in with the energy of the Mercury Retrograde. I was up late last night, past midnight, and remember waking a couple of times throughout the night. I have stopped looking at the clock when I wake.

I woke this morning around 8:00 am from a very disturbing dream about my daughter. In this dream, my daughter walked right out into traffic and was run over by a car. It was as if she wasn’t even paying attention to the fact there was traffic flowing in both directions – or she didn’t care. She walked right in front of a car and was run over. The car then BACKED UP over top of her a second time. I ran to her, as she lay on the ground, and knew she was broken…but she moved… she was still alive! I looked around at all of the people who had gathered – they were just STANDING there – doing NOTHING. I screamed ‘someone call 911!”…And then I woke up to an overwhelming feeling of sadness. I remember this feeling –the same overwhelming sadness I felt when I learned about what happened to my son’s friend Chris. Somebody else’s child. Stupid, tragic mistake. He wasn’t thinking. Life changing mistake.

Well – the sun ☼ is shining today, after a couple of days of chilly and cloudy weather. Let the warm up begin. Have a lot to do to get ready for the family Memorial Celebration we will host here on Sunday – so I will meditate now (9:40 am).

Meditation Notes:
• (uplifting)
• Felt like legs/feet shifted side to side
• ‘Cannot not think’ [this May 18th message is] ‘for me’ [LESSON]
• ‘truancy
• ‘enables
J-name (like Jake)
• ‘Book of Lessons
Bossy –like ‘do it this way
• Heard “…heartbreaking to tell you…”
• Left ear canal itches
• song lyric ♫heart’s going boom, boom, boom
Bill [or B-name]
• Bean…baby….no baby (feel confused)
• Feel sad
Soles of feet tingling [energy]
• Feel hungry [using energy]
END….want to give kudos to my Guides and the Angels for sticking with me through this daily practice. For guiding and assisting me. ♥ Thank You.