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A Spiritual Journey | September 6, 2015

Tuscan Countryside, Italy

Finding Jocelyn Turner…

This morning as I prepare to  meditate my thoughts return to Jocelyn Turner – and the potential connection. A connection for her…. with her mom.

But… I do not  know Jocelyn Turner. And I did not know Jocelyn Turner’s mother. But I do connect with this story. The minute I discovered it I knew, in my heart… and because a chill went through me as goosebumps permeated my skin  [and maybe I should start referring to these goosebumps as ‘angelbumps‘ – since they are happening quite frequently ☺].

Anyway – the story connects with many things I have tuned-in to during meditation. Some things familiar….about many children,  mommy leaving, mommy’s your daddy And the circumstances of mom’s passing. message is there….to Jocelyn from her mom. This I KNOW.  And I will need to trust I will be guided on what to do.

Today’s Meditation Notes 


‘she almost did’ – ‘lose a child’
• ‘it’s all about trust’
9/6..something about today’s date…[maybe ’96?]
J-name (like JoAnne)
• Feeling of falling forward – face first
‘better finish the bottle’
• (numbers) 10, 52
•something about ‘all the way’
Arletha ♫Ar-lee-tha♪   (Spirit Guide – helping me ♥)…the children
‘looking up’
• ‘detox’

Still working through the SYMBOLISM

A Little about My Spirit Guide Arletha…

I was introduced to Arletha (Letha) in September of 2014. She is my African-American Spirit Guide. In December 2014 she began popping in on my meditation practice frequently…and I was able to learn more about her.  Arletha helps me focus on my breathing during meditation. She typically stays in the shadows and has a connection with ‘the cats’. She also has a connection to ‘the children’…AND  has been helping me with the Jocelyn Turner connection .

Reference Dates: Sept 3, 2014; Dec 5, 2014; Dec 9, 2014; Dec 13, 2014; Dec 24, 2014; Feb 4,2015;

Spiritual Journal | August 21, 2015


IMG_2905“Angel Number 33 gives you the courage to live your life with enthusiasm and optimism, safe in the knowledge that you are well blessed, loved and supported in all that you do. Live your life with joy, passion and purpose as this will manifest your true desires. Be prepared to expand and increase your spiritual development and awareness.”

Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: ANGEL NUMBER 33

cropped-stockvault-mannequin-close-up1139362.jpgToday’s Meditation Notes

Friday | 1:00-1:42 PM

Pain shooting through upper right arm – up and through armpit and down into rib cage
• ‘Birthdays
Right cheek – upper tooth pain – S-name (like Sarah)
Littlespeck of light’ – feeling as if there was ‘something about her’
•’Samuel’ (My Spirit Guide ♥] then heard “it’s been a while”
• Vision: a  foot print in the sand 
• Vision: like a hook on a wall
S-name (like Stephanie)
• Feeling – like ‘sometimes I’m so mad at her!
• something  “of God” …a v-word, ver-something, like verticules (?)
‘Let that go …it’s okay’
• Feels like questioning something
Julie – 25 years – favorite aunt – only aunt
Lower throat – scratchy/dry feeling
• ‘process’
• Song lyric ♫ take me to the other side ♪
• Pain across nose …’bridge’

About My Meditation Notes…


In May of last year, I was introduced to Samuel –  one of my Spirit Guides – my Master Teacher (read about My Psychic Reading  here). But honestly, I was doubtful about this ‘spirit guide‘ information I was getting from this psychic. I mean, I had already been trying to connect with my guides (or guide) during meditation – with no luck.  And besides, shouldn’t I have some kind of feeling associated with meeting my guide for the first time? Because I didn’t. Nada. Nothing. And a stranger can come into my home and tell me all about him? Really? So the idea of this Guide named Samuel seemed almost embarrassing at the time….as much as I wanted to believe it. Well, it turns out Samuel is my Guide, along with Felix and Arletha (and a couple of others…check out the photo of My Spirit Guides here).  And each Guide has a very specific purpose for me… Samuel’s is to help me create – because he is all about the Writing!

SYMBOLISM: a foot print in the sand

FootstepsSo – I’m sure the vision of the footprint in the sand is symbolic (well, okay – I got the word symbolic, then the name Samuel, then the vision of the footprint in the sand….come on now – obvious! ☺  I found a connection with the following – especially considering my Spirit Guide Samuel is with me again…

“The Footprint – As A Symbol The Footprint is a very Ancient and Sacred Symbol. Symbolically,The Footprint represents the Memory, and the Teachings, of the Master Teacher.The Master Teacher has been called by many names throughout the Ages… Each one of these Master Teachers were a “channel” through whom Divine Wisdom was imparted to humanity….The Footprint reminds us that these Master Teachers once resided in our earthly domain and shared Divine Wisdom with us…”

Source: A Seeker’s Thoughts: The Footprint – As A Symbol

 LESSONSVernaculars of God

A message came through for me today…three words – about God, or of God. I didn’t hear the first word clearly – but know it was a word beginning with the letter v and  had four syllables… like ver-tic-u- les (verticules?) And there is no such word… so perhaps the word was vernaculars. …“Vernaculars of God”.

Vernacular definition:

ver·nac·u·lar vərˈnakyələr/ noun 1. the language or dialect spoken by the ordinary people in a particular country or region. “he wrote in the vernacular to reach a larger audience” synonyms: language, dialect, regional language, regionalisms, patois, parlance; More – Source: define vernacular – Google Search

I will have to think about this message. Was it for me, or maybe about, or for, another?


• Everybody has this strength within… Inner Strength.  • Reminders to follow through  on promises. • My purpose lies within helping those who have lost – with love, healing, comfort and support • Am I supposed to feel something? How will I know? • You will Know. Relax and Allow. (Thank You ♥)

Spiritual Journal July 30, 2015

Thursday: Messages through SONG AND MUSIC

I’ve noticed random song lyrics popping into my head again. Frequently. And I know my Spirit Guides and the Angels communicate with me through song and music, both during and outside of my normal meditation practice. This morning the song lyric is ♫it’s gonna take time, it’s gonna take patience and time…to do it right♪ (G. Harrison). I think this is a message to me – from my higher-self. ☺

On Tuesday evening the song was Sweet Emotions…and in my head it’s Aerosmith singing (it’s not  in my voice  – it rarely is, even though sometimes the words are wrong ☺). But I’m getting just the words – sweet emotions – being sung, over and over. I know who this is connected to…and why I was getting the song.  Guidance from the  Angels.

This last week…almost on a daily basis, it is the lyric ♫hold me closer tiny dancer♫ (Elton John) . This is definitely connected to someone, but I’m not sure who…yet. I know my Guides are trying to help me with this connection (see July 23 – July 28 meditation notes).

Puzzle pieces

I started reviewing my journal notes (again) – this is helping me to put more of the puzzle pieces together. Every now and then I find a piece that fits. There are many journal notes I don’t post on this blog…because I believe they are private or of a sensitive nature to others…and because I am still learning how to understand them myself. These are the parts that are clicking though – the puzzle pieces that are suddenly fitting together. Still so much to learn. I need to spend time and focus my energy on continuing to look back. This is how I will learn. And grow.

Meditation Notes:
• A smell…like cardboard
• See colors…red and orange
• Attention to throat/neck
• ‘imbalance’
• song lyric ♫Desire♪
• ‘mom’
• Feels like moving over to the side…stepping over to the right…stepping aside
‘have to go to that place’
• Attention to ears (like inner ear)…then attention to knee
• ‘listen’…then ’not listening’
Vision: bare tree branches…but branches are white….look like they are glowing

stockvault-full-moon157085Tomorrow night is the Blue Moon.

I am ready!

Journal Notes June 18, 2015


Yesterday I did not write in my journal.  I spent the day doing yard work, and the evening working on feedback for both the readings I received as well as the two I gave.


Today I am being prompted (with the thought) to finish what I am referring to as my Book of Lessons. I have only captured the lessons through October 2014, so there is much catching up to do! I am sure there is a reason I am being guided to continue this.  I must at least bring the list up-to-date, because I am sure my lessons or not yet finished. And I must review them. And I must trust.

Meditation Notes: 12:15 – 12:58 PM

‘allows you to know stuff [sic] about people’
• ‘Discretion’ –‘Important’ {TY} GUIDANCE
• Song lyric ♫Let’s Dance
• Feeling of excited anticipation
Indian chief – white feathers
Dancing Thunder  
• ♫put on your red shoes and dance with me♪
Dorothy – OZ
• Trust Always. Don’t try to rationalize. {TY} GUIDANCE
‘sending thoughts’
• Top of head left side – ITCHY
• ♫let’s dance♪ (Okay ☺)
‘magic’ ‘alchemy’ ‘moonlight’
‘don’t laugh’feels ‘serious’
• Attention to throat/upper chest
Outside…at night…I’m supposed to be
• ‘already at a higher vibration’
God. Know. Within.
Vision: looked like a string of little blue kite shaped objects
• Prick sensation on left foot
• (Suddenly remember) waking to a vision: looked like a silver (tin) bucket with very clear water…another object (ring) sitting in the center of the water-filled bucket – something in the ring
• M-name
Vision:  BIG (tree or plant) root coming out of the ground
Vision: gathering sticks, twigs, branches
‘nervous’ feeling through chest – like fear
Vision: looked like a fern leaf
Vision: cherry tree (cherries? or fuchsia pink flowers)
• Heard “it’s not my turn, is it?”
Vision: black and white ‘finger prints’ – like a pattern, design , artwork
• ‘I’d say – if this stuff doesn’t match mine….’ [huh?]
Vision: garden hoses

END…I definitely FELT guidance was being offered to me today.  ♥ But the visions... I have been outside doing a lot of yard work this week – trimming shrubs and flowers, pulling weeds, taking down some tree limbs, etc. How many of my visions are just replaying these activities for me?

{TY} indicates I acknowledge and give thanks for the message or lesson
[bracketed comments are notes added after meditation]
(parenthesis notations are typically written during meditation)

Journal Notes June 12, 2015 The Cardinal and the Number 12…and 21

More About the Cardinal…

“Native American tradition holds the spiritual belief that spirits, or souls, inhabit the universe and each of its natural elements. The belief that all birds and other animals, known as power or medicine animals, are messengers from the Great Spirit has long been an element of shamanism. Cardinal medicine symbolizes relationships, courtship and monogamy in Native American lore.”

“The Powerful Magic of Medicine Animals –  According to Native American legend, a power or medicine animal has magical abilities and is able to empower humans with the traits and characteristics of that animal. These animal guides may cross your path, gaining your attention, or they may appear to you in dreams. Medicine animals act as guides, teachers or protectors as they impart power, wisdom or virtue to the chosen person.”

Source: Meaning of Red Cardinals to the Native Americans | Animals – mom.me

About the Cardinal and the Number 12…

I have seen the cardinal every other month this year. And the number 12 came to me first in a vision. I was intrigued when I discovered a relationship between these two symbols….and so began another dig through my journal notes!

The cardinal came first in February, then April, and again in June (just the other day). And the number 12 came to me first in a vision in May 2014, as the word ‘twelve’ in February 2015,  and  then was repeated to me in a message in March 2015. It’s the number I’m not supposed to forget about…the one with the ability to change my life. ☺ I guess, until I understand, I will continue to get ‘clues’.

“Cardinals and the Number 12 The number 12 is considered a lucky number by many Native Americans. The number 12 also is associated with the cardinal. Cardinals are seen during all 12 months of the year. A cardinal’s nest often contains 12 eggs. Native American lore holds that if you have encountered a cardinal, expect good luck to follow, possibly in 12 hours, 12 days, or at noon or midnight.”

Source: Meaning of Red Cardinals to the Native Americans | Animals – mom.me

About the Numbers 12 and 21…

“The Numbers 12 and 21 represent Father and Mother both in Christianity and
Buddhism, these numbers are basically 2 and 1 reversed in a mirror reflection of
each other.”(C.Ryan, 2014)

Number 21 Appearance
Number 21: September 5, 2014  and November 21, 2014 

Journal Notes June 10, 2015

Wednesday 12:55 PM

I wasn’t going to practice mindful meditation today…it is hubby’s first day of summer break – at home!  I suspect I may have to make a few adjustments to my morning routine – but I really hope not.  Anyway – he is outside enjoying time with his fish pond, and I suddenly realize I really want and need to meditate.

As I run down the stairs to grab a few things I need, I see the very vibrant cardinal – sitting on the sidewalk right outside my front door. I have to stop and watch him – he is truly beautiful.  He seems to visit me every couple of months.

Symbolism of the Cardinal

“The cardinal makes a fantastic animal totem. It reminds us to hold ourselves with pride – not ego pride. Rather, the cardinal asks us to stand a little taller, be a bit more regal, step into our natural confidence as if we were born to lead with grace and nobility. Those who attract the cardinal as their totem are naturally energetic, love life, and happily help others where/when they can.”
Source: Animal Symbolism of the Cardinal

Meditation Notes:

  • ‘camping’ – the word and a feeling
  • feels like something stuck in throat
  • 103 
  • blank….nothingness
  • (cleared throat)
  • ‘Indian chief’
  • (new guide?) – ‘yes’
  • T-name – ‘Bear’
  • ‘Thunder’
  • attention to left leg- calf...something about running
  • feel vibration shift – over and up
  • feeling of head moving in a circle
  • ‘dances‘ – types of dances
  • heard “it’s all about the energy”
  • (got flash of aqua-color across crown of head)
  • ache in left breast – and under arm
  • vision someone climbing a tree – putting/hanging something in the branches
  • heard “stationary
  • vision of a girl(?) up in the tree – has on a brown – swimsuit(?)
  • vision of a  (different) tree – trunk and branches – no leaves – bare – ‘dead’
  • got ‘do what you can do – keep livin’ [sic] life’
  • heard “April” then (a word starting with the letter) “L….”
  • vision of a female – thin – with brownish thin hair – at a counter(?)…wearing a white shirt and jean shorts
  • ache top of left shoulder
  • ache across chest -headache now (relax & release)
  • ‘names’ – something about ‘names’
  • ‘Jane‘ – then the song Jane ♫
  • something about the kids – coming or going?


I believe a new Spirit Guide is being introduced! I am excited to learn more about this guide!

Journal Notes June 8, 2015


Deja Vu…..Connections…..Ascension 101….Spirit Guides

Spent yesterday with the family and friends at the sister’s pool. Sunday Funday! Thank you S&T…and by the way – Happy Birthday 🎂 again, Sister!

Today the weather is warm  – but the skies are cloudy. It looks like it will rain. It will be a good day to do the ‘indoor’ things.

Meditation Notes:

  • mom
  • felt nudge on left hip
  • vision: looked like a wood-slatted wall [like before drywall – bare]
  • attention to mouth – teeth, swallowing
  • vision: [looked like a] funnel cloud
  • heard “it’s moving closer to the house
  • J-name (Jim)
  • stay in the basement
  • (something) feels ‘familiar
  • ‘déjà vu’
  • calendar‘ – ‘events
  • June 2 birthday

[∞♂♀€ My Connection to this bullet…..June 2 was a Full Moon.  The first time I got a connection to my birthday was on June 13, 2014 – ALSO a Full Moon – during meditation I got the numbers 10 and 23. My birthday is 10/23.]

  • ascension 101

[Okay – so I had to do it. I Googled ‘ascension 101’….and here’s what I found :
https://ascension101.com/   and    https://www.facebook.com/pages/Ascension101/340920804286 .  Can’ wait to check these sites out….tools?

  • feel head pressure – like a balloon ready to ‘pop
  • list of 3
  • itching around hairline – [around] neck
  • listening….sounds
  • felt sudden energy from the left sweep through me
  • heard “hey” – sounded like from the left
  • vision: Native American – male – big white feathers – head dress
  • song lyric ♫me and Julio down by the school yard♪ [perhaps Native American has a J-name?…and feel like he may be connected to my hubby because the ♫ song ♪ is connected to him ☺]


I just remembered, as I reviewed today’s meditation notes, that just yesterday I had a major déjà vu moment – when I looked over into the yard and saw the little child laying on the ground  with a very pink baby blanket over top of her. It was EXACTLY as I had seen it in the vision I had during meditation on June 3rd.

Déjà vu, ( i/ˌdeɪʒɑː ˈvuː/; French pronunciation: ​[de.ʒa.vy]) from French, literally “already seen,” is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation that an event or experience currently being experienced, has already been experienced in the past, whether it has actually happened or not. Source: what is deja vu – Google Search



Journal Notes May 22, 2015


New Moon energy is with me…mixing in with the energy of the Mercury Retrograde. I was up late last night, past midnight, and remember waking a couple of times throughout the night. I have stopped looking at the clock when I wake.

I woke this morning around 8:00 am from a very disturbing dream about my daughter. In this dream, my daughter walked right out into traffic and was run over by a car. It was as if she wasn’t even paying attention to the fact there was traffic flowing in both directions – or she didn’t care. She walked right in front of a car and was run over. The car then BACKED UP over top of her a second time. I ran to her, as she lay on the ground, and knew she was broken…but she moved… she was still alive! I looked around at all of the people who had gathered – they were just STANDING there – doing NOTHING. I screamed ‘someone call 911!”…And then I woke up to an overwhelming feeling of sadness. I remember this feeling –the same overwhelming sadness I felt when I learned about what happened to my son’s friend Chris. Somebody else’s child. Stupid, tragic mistake. He wasn’t thinking. Life changing mistake.

Well – the sun ☼ is shining today, after a couple of days of chilly and cloudy weather. Let the warm up begin. Have a lot to do to get ready for the family Memorial Celebration we will host here on Sunday – so I will meditate now (9:40 am).

Meditation Notes:
• (uplifting)
• Felt like legs/feet shifted side to side
• ‘Cannot not think’ [this May 18th message is] ‘for me’ [LESSON]
• ‘truancy
• ‘enables
J-name (like Jake)
• ‘Book of Lessons
Bossy –like ‘do it this way
• Heard “…heartbreaking to tell you…”
• Left ear canal itches
• song lyric ♫heart’s going boom, boom, boom
Bill [or B-name]
• Bean…baby….no baby (feel confused)
• Feel sad
Soles of feet tingling [energy]
• Feel hungry [using energy]
END….want to give kudos to my Guides and the Angels for sticking with me through this daily practice. For guiding and assisting me. ♥ Thank You.

Connections ♥ March 24, 2015

Skeleton Bones

stockvault-human-skeleton-circa-1911148433First – I did a little searching on the symbolism of skeleton bones since I had a vision of this during meditation yesterday. I found a book that provides interesting insight to this vision – via Modern Buddhist Masters: (Living Buddhist Masters) – Jack Kornfield – Google Books.  Actually, I thought of Ezekiel as soon as I had the vision…so this is probably the real connection for me.  I haven’t connected to Ezekiel since last Fall, after first receiving the name on Aug 6, 2014. Ezekiel is the Angel of Transformation…so it seems appropriate to be connecting again ☺.

Those Words: Outside – Yesterday – Last Night (from March 21, 2015 Meditation Notes)

The word outside first came in during meditation on Jan 7, 2015 with “let’s go outside and dig in the dirt”; then on Jan 11 as ‘step outside the body’; and on Jan 25 as ‘need to get outside; on Feb 1 & Feb 2 just the word ‘outside‘; Feb 9 with a ‘feeling of being outside‘ (as in outdoors); and continued on Feb 19, Feb 21, and Feb 23….until March 21. I’m surprised my guides haven’t given up on me yet! But I do believe I understand the message…and I’m trying!!

The word yesterday was first received on Jan 26, 2015 which would make ‘yesterday’ the date Jan 25, 2015 . On this date I noted ‘it is time’, ‘need to get outside’ [smelled, felt and sounded like ‘outside’ (outdoors), too], a ‘message for (me)’ then ‘attention to the throat’ (the message is – use your voice! TALK about it with those ‘outside’). On Jan 26 also I received messages / lessons about staying committed, the word ‘lightworker’, and guidance to share my story (I launched this Blog not long after ) The word yesterday came again on Jan 29, Feb 22, Feb 23, …then March 21.

Now, about last night (from Mar 21 Meditation Notes) – this was the easy one…and this is the one that truly helped me connect the other two ‘words’. Last night would have been Fri March 20th – a significant date in and of itself… but I was with my sister, who I ALWAYS share my meditation experiences with. Not only does she provide great insight, but WE HAVE FUN AND LAUGH!!!  


It is time. Get outside (beyond my safe-haven, or enclosure…which is my home and my laptop!) and share (talk about) your story and experiences with others. Stay committed – but have fun with it!

And So It Is.

Thank You!


Journal Notes March 10, 2015

March 10, 2015 Tues    Today’s Angel Numbers 222; 456

Know I woke many times last night. The first was at 12:22 am. Went back to sleep and woke a while later to a thought…then back to sleep for a while and woke again to another thought. This repeated throughout the night. Each time I woke, I reviewed each thought – making a list, reviewing it in my head, and telling myself I would remember this list of things I was waking to, and would be able to write everything down in the morning. This morning when I woke, the ONLY thing I can remember is the first waking time (12:22),  and that I was making a ‘list’. Of course, I do not remember anything from the ‘list’.  Each night when I go to bed, I ask for help ‘remembering’ that which is significant from my dreams. So I think the significance of last night must be the number (1222) and  a ‘list’ ♥.

Mom was over this morning and I told her about those being tapped (or poked/ patted?) on the back when sleeping on my couch. She immediately asked if I thought it could be Uncle R. (ER) Of course!  That makes PERFECT sense! He is not trying to scare anyone (both who experienced this said it did NOT scare them) – he just wants them to know he is there :).

Meditation Notes

  • Today was just for ME ♥ – No notes written