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BALANCE & GRATITUDE | October 13, 2015

A Spiritual Journey

Tuesday 8:20 PM

Right now, at this moment, I am both physically and mentally exhausted. Yet I feel compelled to write, despite the fact I have not made a journal entry since October 6th nor updated this blog since September 22nd. But I have learned to trust – and know I am exactly where I am supposed to be at this very moment.

So, my life has been a whirlwind of activity for the last three weeks.

Total Lunar Eclipse September 27 | New Moon  in Libra October 12


Something about the Total Lunar Eclipse on September 27… this event triggered some major changes for me. Don’t laugh, because I absolutely felt it. I actually began to feel a shift in the energy the day of the eclipse – and I was ready (September was really a tough month for me)!

And with this eclipse came a sudden sense of exhilaration and inspiration.

Inspiration to let go of a lot of ‘stuff’. Material stuff – as most (I hope) of the emotional ‘stuff’  was released last month.  And, through this process of letting go, I am rediscovering all that I already have. I am finding treasures – and am filling my heart with precious memories.  And I am feeling grateful. I am getting my home ready to welcome a new life into our family (my grand baby). And I am feeling grateful. I am following through on promises I made to myself, and on commitments made to others. I am  spending some time creating through art when I feel inspired. I am meditating and staying grounded. I am focusing on the present moment – and on what I want my reality to be. I am learning and I am growing. And I am finding balance.


I am also trusting my intuition – and today I started a new part-time job. It just felt right – and I knew it was meant to be.  So, despite being physically and mentally exhausted at the moment, I am – once again – feeling grateful.  ❤

Spiritual Journal | August 29, 2015


I hope the Full Moon tonight brings an end to whatever has been hanging with me this past week.   I’ve felt super sensitive – to EVERYTHING… and everyone.  This feeling of sadness  has now completely zapped my energy. But  I do realize there are things I need to release and heal…and I am  now ready to let them go.

Today’s Meditation Notes:

Saturday | 11:31 AM – 12:31 PM

  • M-name (like Mary)
  • Vision: the letter J (big fat letter)
  • Heard something about “wrapping up napkins”
  • Vision: a big blue book (looked like a dictionary)
  • ‘the eyes’
  • Headache
  • Heard “spirit” …then “vocations”  [another pretty word♥]
  • my arms are very stiff right now’….
  • daughter
  • ‘work it out
  • (long pause……..)
  • Vision: an older woman in a bed – like a hospital bed -bed is on the ceiling though – above me
  • something about ‘your accountants name
  • Heard a name with “T-S” initials…name came in LOUD
  • Felt like ‘it took all that time…to get (something)…’
  • heard “FLY!”
  • Attention to right arm
  • the number ‘14
  • Heel of left foot – prickly feeling
  • Something with the left eye…feels like a ‘wink’
  • Grandma
  • Pat – P-name – Patrice
  • Vision: the lower right arm and hand against something very white, like a sleeve – arm skin is dark, maybe tan
  • Right hand – all knuckles are achy
  • ♫they call me the working man♪
  • vision: a Disney photograph [it’s a picture of me and T-S!] ☺
  • B-name ( like Brandon)…another B-G name
  • ♫they call me the working man♪
  • Pain above right eye/brow
  • (uplifting feelings)
  • Hear whistling – nice tune – 4 beats (low-high-low-high) ☺
  • Attention to right upper lip
  • ’can you get there?’
  • heard “Bo”,,,maybe ‘bow’
  • Something about ½ hour session…only $15.00
  • ‘sneaky’ then ‘is it allowed to be?’
  • memory – about the Angels

END….I know who this connection is for. ♥

Yesterday’s Meditation Notes:

Friday | 10:15 – 11:00 AM

stockvault-sculpture168854• see a female – blond or light hair…then two Angels
• Attention to lower throat
♫hold me closer tiny dancer♪… the ‘highway’
• something about rings – wedding rings
Mild temple pain
‘your aura is PINK’
Vision: bride and groom – see very long white veil

Spiritual Journal | August 26, 2015

Bad Dreams and Symbolism

My friend A. contacted me about  a ‘bad’ dream she had. She said it really bothered her because it was about me. Well, after she relayed her dream to me I had to  agree with why she was bothered by it! But I quickly realized her dream wasn’t prophetic…it was a dream of consequence. And it was full of symbolism. As soon as I started looking at the main elements of her dream I understood this. And  as we  discussed the symbolism of each element,  A. could quickly relate with its true meaning.

I used the Website dreammoods.com to help my friend interpret her dream. And… I guess this is why I was in it!


Feeling ODD 

These last couple of day’s have felt odd. I wish I had a better word to use – but that’s it. Just odd. And this morning I woke early – more than convinced it was Saturday. What’s up with that? Maybe it’s the weather? Its feeling (and looking) a little like Autumn already – cloudy skies and all. Or maybe it’s the moon… another Full Moon is approaching.

Going to meditate now– need to balance,  focus and  maybe even gain some clarity.

Wednesday Meditation Notes

| 10:20 AM – 11:00 AM

  • Seeing a male…almost as if standing behind something
  • Bee sting
  • Something about ‘speed’
  • a boy version’ of something…..’gift
  • T-name (like Todd)
  •  J-name (like Jodi)
  •  a sour smell
  • Song lyric ♫ your love is like bad medicine ♪
  • Vision: from the beach – looking out toward the ocean – dusk – sun setting low – very pretty….
  • T-name (like Terry)
  • ‘please stand up’ – then heard “right there
  • ‘Memorial service’
  • (pause – nothingness)
  • Heard “your bonus check”
  • Heard “went into town for himself” < himself was pronounced very quickly
  • R-name (Ryan)
  • Heard “I’m telling you” then “grab that”
  • Heard “about a month and a half ago”….then “what’s that?”…then “you guys make him laugh”
  • Papa
  • M-M  (maybe initials?)
  • Heard “paper
  • (pause – nothingness)
  • ‘Giovani’ …. ‘last name’….’like Marshal’
  • daddy’s here’
  • ‘Like Stacy?’…then heard “are you changing the subject?” ….go back to M-MMadison – then spelling out the name...

END…okay – I’m still not doing well with asking for clarity. And I know… It’s okay to ask. But  really – I get so caught up in the experience I don’t even know WHAT to ask! And when I do…well, see the last bullet above. ☹

Spiritual Journal August 7, 2015


I have this feeling of having to ‘hurry’ in order to get some meditation time today, but I’ve actually been feeling this way all week.  So I’m taking a break right now (it’s 10:10 AM) to meditate outside. I might just sit here and look at the clouds… and the Sun….and the Waning Moon (these two have been sharing the morning sky all week!)

Meditation Notes:
• ‘Grandma
• ‘Dancing
• Smiling ☺ – happy feeling
• ‘Home’…then ‘haven’ [another pretty word!]
• ‘watch me

END…Well, I ended meditation because my stomach is growling (yes, I am hungry) and because the direct sun makes me feel as if my skin is on fire. And mom will be here soon… she said she’d bring me some tomatoes. ☺

Spiritual Journal August 3, 2015


stockvault-retro-alarm-clock131462 I think I woke up every single hour throughout the night last night.  First I was too hot. Then I was hungry. Then I had a headache….Finally, at 5:11 AM, I decided to get up. I made a pot of coffee – then ended up falling asleep on the couch for a couple of hours. I slept on the same area  of the sectional where the back tapping occurred and the apparitions appeared.  I didn’t see  or feel anything, though – I just slept.

So, what’s with all of this waking during the night? It’s been going on for at least as long as I’ve been journaling…and probably started happening frequently and somewhat regularly just shortly before that.  I don’t have any concerns it’s related to any type of personal health issue. So I accept it for what it is….   According to the Website The Shift Has Hit The Fan (love the name ☺), it’s just one of many ascension symptoms

Changing sleep patterns: restlessness, hot feet, waking up two or three times a night. Feeling tired after you wake up and sleepy off and on during the day. There is something called the Triad Sleep Pattern that occurs for many: you sleep for about 2-3 hours, wake up, go back to sleep for another couple of hours, wake again, and go back to sleep again. For others, the sleep requirements have changed. You can get by on less sleep. Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state….” Read more here – Source: The most comprehensive list of Ascension Symptoms | The Shift Has Hit The Fan

I’ve learned to respect this pattern of waking through the night. It just is. I do try to remember to journal when it happens…because I have this strong feeling I will find a pattern –  one probably related to the moon.

I’m going to try to meditate now…even though I have a mild headache. Hoping I will meditate it away.

Meditation Notes:
Left upper arm aches…into shoulder
• Song ♫Toy Soldiers♪ (Eminem) pops into my head
• Vision: black and white circles
• something ‘getting better now’
Jim [or J-name]
• Heard “it’s going to rain”
• Song lyric ♫ when it’s time for leavin’, I hope you’ll understand, that I was born a ramblin’ man♪ [The Allman Brothers Band]

END…Thank You. My headache is gone. I hope it doesn’t rain, though. ☺

Spiritual Journal August 1, 2015


Had the sisters over last night to celebrate the Full Moon. We sat in the front yard – in a circle under the moon . We held hands and giggled. I believe in Magic…and I wished for magical blessings for us. New Moon Magic. I’m sure my sisters didn’t hear me though – they were too busy being silly. But that’s why I love them so much! ♥


My niece was also here for a while last night, and she said she had an experience while she was alone in my house. She said she saw ‘someone’ in the family room. Two ‘someones’, as a matter-of-fact.

She told me she was putting ice-cream in the kitchen freezer when she noticed something in her peripheral vision. So she glanced over to her right and saw what she described as a glowing light, like an aura – in the corner of the family room. She then walked over to the ‘coffee pot corner’ of the kitchen and just stood there, because she could see directly into the family room corner from this spot. She said she then saw ‘people’ – a couple, holding hands – sitting on the corner of the sectional (couch). She initially thought it was my son, but then remembered he was at work. She said whoever she was seeing then rose (as if a person was standing up) and waved at her.  She said she felt this was a male energy… but wasn’t sure about the other.


So…this is the same room, the same exact location of the ‘back tapping‘ experienced by both my son and my sister while sleeping on the same section of the family room couch. I think back now to prior meditation notes – from January (the date 1-23 to be exact) when I heard “better talk to him first for a  while” followed by ‘I sat in the living room and talked to the room’.  Is this the room  – and is there somebody here I’m supposed to talk to?


I have tried a couple of times (in the recent past) to connect with this energy in the family room. I’ve tried in the dining room, too. I know it is here…I can feel it. The cats absolutely can feel it as well. But I haven’t had much success connecting…and I think it’s because it still scares me a little. I have to fight with the pin-prick goosebumps permeating my body… I have to remind myself it is the energy causing my body to react this way, and it is not the result of  fear.  I’m still having a hard time separating the  two – but I’ve decided I will keep trying to establish a connection  with this energy – because I want to know. Who is here? And why?
So I  will ask – and my Spirit Guides will help  me. They understand my fear. 

Spirit Guides in my mirror!

Meditation Notes: 2:45 PM – 3:10 PM

Beginning meditation with Chakra balancing….Root, Sacral, and Throat.

counting: the number 6
Vision: looked like a lampshade (shaped object) in the middle of a lawn (grass)
• sudden memory of the first house I lived in as a child – the side yard – suddenly felt as if I was there (like a flashback)
• Ache under right upper arm
female: K- name (or hard C-name)

IMG_2905Decided to pray….for love and healing to all in need.

I want. I believe. I trust. I receive.  

And so it is.

Spiritual Journal July 31, 2015


Good reads about the Blue Moon….

Source: Tania Gabrielle | Numerologist.com
Source: Kari Samuels | Numerologist.com


During meditation yesterday I saw the colors red and orange. These colors are associated with the Root Chakra (red) and Sacral Chakra (orange). Shortly after these colors appeared, my attention was drawn to my throat [Throat Chakra (blue)], followed by the word ‘imbalance’.  So, as I begin meditation today, I will focus on healing and balancing these three chakras.

meditation notes: 2:00 PM   
Colorful sticks made from wood.
Colorful sticks made from wood.

• before I even begin my opening process – all kinds of physical sensations…     lower back tooth aches…
• burning sensation across chest
• mild pain – left shoulder into neck…left side of throat
• attention to left elbow
• feeling of ‘going up’
• ‘new moon magic
Mild headache
Vision:looked like Popsicle sticks
‘I totally remember’

END…. Only got 10 minutes today! Shoot.

New moon magic…Are you ready? 

Next New Moon – August 14, 2015. “New Moons are about starting fresh and beginning projects, while Full Moons mark the completion of a cycle.” Source: New Moon Magic: May 2015 | Gala Darling

Spiritual Journal July 30, 2015

Thursday: Messages through SONG AND MUSIC

I’ve noticed random song lyrics popping into my head again. Frequently. And I know my Spirit Guides and the Angels communicate with me through song and music, both during and outside of my normal meditation practice. This morning the song lyric is ♫it’s gonna take time, it’s gonna take patience and time…to do it right♪ (G. Harrison). I think this is a message to me – from my higher-self. ☺

On Tuesday evening the song was Sweet Emotions…and in my head it’s Aerosmith singing (it’s not  in my voice  – it rarely is, even though sometimes the words are wrong ☺). But I’m getting just the words – sweet emotions – being sung, over and over. I know who this is connected to…and why I was getting the song.  Guidance from the  Angels.

This last week…almost on a daily basis, it is the lyric ♫hold me closer tiny dancer♫ (Elton John) . This is definitely connected to someone, but I’m not sure who…yet. I know my Guides are trying to help me with this connection (see July 23 – July 28 meditation notes).

Puzzle pieces

I started reviewing my journal notes (again) – this is helping me to put more of the puzzle pieces together. Every now and then I find a piece that fits. There are many journal notes I don’t post on this blog…because I believe they are private or of a sensitive nature to others…and because I am still learning how to understand them myself. These are the parts that are clicking though – the puzzle pieces that are suddenly fitting together. Still so much to learn. I need to spend time and focus my energy on continuing to look back. This is how I will learn. And grow.

Meditation Notes:
• A smell…like cardboard
• See colors…red and orange
• Attention to throat/neck
• ‘imbalance’
• song lyric ♫Desire♪
• ‘mom’
• Feels like moving over to the side…stepping over to the right…stepping aside
‘have to go to that place’
• Attention to ears (like inner ear)…then attention to knee
• ‘listen’…then ’not listening’
Vision: bare tree branches…but branches are white….look like they are glowing

stockvault-full-moon157085Tomorrow night is the Blue Moon.

I am ready!

Spiritual Journal July 15, 2015

Wednesday NEW MOON 

stockvault-full-moon157085New Moon Magic

“New Moons are a great time to set intentions for things you’d like to create, develop, cultivate, make, manifest. There are many ways to initiate this communion with the Universe from lighting a candle to elaborate rituals.”  Sourcehttp://astrology.about.com/od/foundations/p/NewMoon.htm

It seems like a very long while since I’ve sat down to write in this journal, yet it’s only been a few days. A very busy few days. So much I want to do…so much I also NEED to do. Priorities…need to keep my focus because, you know, I have this problem with procrastination.

I worked outside all day yesterday. The new deck is in…unfortunately the refurbishing option didn’t agree with the 16-year-old deck wood. But Bob the Builder…you are awesome.  Angel Numbers  also filled the day – appearing for me each time I glanced at the clock. 11:11 AM, 3:33 PM, and 5:55 PM. I am paying attention to my thoughts…at the exact moment I see the ‘number’ I stop – and fully acknowledge whatever was in my head. Always seem to be thinking something positive or inspiring.

I have been meditating daily – but my focus is on me, so I haven’t been writing. I’m being reminded of all I have already learned. I am being told it is okay to stop – take a break – and  step back.

Today I will write…if I am supposed to. I am open to it.

Meditation Notes: 12:11 PM
• ‘Daughter
• something about ‘insurance money
• Song lyric… ♫ Love Shack, that’s where it’s at ♥ (repeating)
• ‘Larry‘ [or L-name}
Feeling of ‘hunger’ [=Love♥]
• ‘many times
• ‘tell her
• ‘Mary‘ [or M-name]
• Heard “Oh I know where I am. Feels like I’ve been here before”
• then heard “feels like heaven”
• Top of left hand- itchy
• Getting a Zepplin song in my head (not sure of name or words)…music ♫ 
‘I’ve gotten quite good at it’
• ‘Amanda‘ [or A-name]  (…maybe A-B name?)
• Pain in left shoulder/upper arm
• got: November – babysecret Mary – daughter  [ < clues? ]
• ‘go back’…‘look’ [feels like GUIDANCE]
• ‘Bill‘ [or B-name]
• Feel excited!
• feeling of LOVE LOVE LOVE

Puzzle Pieces…

Toward the end of meditation I felt as if I was being ‘reminded‘ again…of things I have already picked up during other meditation sessions. Clues.  Maybe the puzzle pieces are starting to fall into place? I will have to go back through my journal, and look.



Journal Notes July 1, 2015 FULL MOON ☪


Angel Numbers 11:11, 1:23 …The rain came again yesterday…and I glanced at the clock as soon as I noticed it raining. 3:33 PM.

Last night I went to bed around 10:30…and as soon as I lay down I started to get a stomach ache – like the IBS-type ache I used to suffer from regularly. I was able to sleep, but I woke this morning with a headache and mild pain in my ears and throat…oh no! I better not be getting sick! Interesting thing is,  as soon as I got up and acknowledged how I was feeling (told the hubby), I immediately felt better!

It is another gloomy day, but I just went outside and grounded. And I called for the sun.☼ It’s now 11:00 am and I’m going to meditate.

Meditation Notes:
• See many faces in the candle flame aura
‘dancing’ ( ♫ dance with me ♪)
Holding hands…my left to (someone’s) right
J-name, L-name
‘the children’
• Feel sadness – deep in solar plexus
• ‘Full Moon’ ‘Set intentions’  {TY} GUIDANCE
• (the darn garbage truck outside distracts me…and the weather band radio will probably sound the weekly alarm next 🙁 )
Hunger feeling
• Seeing blocks of energy and white twinkles of light in the air

Going to stop for now…maybe listen to a meditation audio for a change….feel like I need it…a change ♥