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A Spiritual Journey | September 17, 2015


stockvault-house-at-night101808Last night, as I closed my eyes to sleep, I had a vision…. A vision of 3 purple triangles ▲▲▲. This morning, I almost couldn’t wait to check into what this vision might symbolize for me.

So here it is…. 

“To see a triangle …symbolizes your aspirations, potential and truth. It represents your spirituality: the body, mind, and spirit. If the triangle is pointing upward, then it signifies the masculine while a downward pointing triangle signifies the feminine. “

“Three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, self-exploration and experience. Three stands for a trilogy, as in the past, present, and future or father, mother, and child or body, mind, and soul, etc. “

Purple is indicative of devotion, healing abilities, loving, kindness, and compassion. It is also the color of royalty, high rank, justice, wealth and dignity.”

Source: dreammoods.com

Was there a message there for me? Yes.


Okay, but what does THAT mean…really?  There’s a great read on Ask-Angels.com about Mercury Retrograde. Here’s a snippet…

Mercury Retrograde Meaning

Mercury Retrograde has a way of opening our eyes up to what we were unable, unwilling, or just too busy before to actually see.This makes Mercury retrograde a wonderful time to review what you are doing. Rather than jumping into something new, it’s a great time to finish up existing projects, refine and make your existing work better, and reveal solutions and innovations where you may have felt blocked or stagnated before.

Source: Mercury Retrograde Meaning  < read more!



Meditated today outside ☼ …on a lounge chair by the pool.

• Feels like lots of people around…excited & happy…but waiting
• Left side of nose…nostril…weird pain
• Feels like numbness to the front of the face
• Mom & Dad [parent-figures]
• Pain shoots up front of lower right leg
• Breathing feels labored
• T-name (like Theresa)
• See white light [light is being shed on something]
• “Book of Lessons” [learning lessons]
• Pain shoots across brow line
• D-name (like Dave)
• Uncle
• J-name (like Julie)
• TW-name (like Terry / like Williams)
• Pain – Left side of throat/neck
• Feels like shielding sun from eyes…more like a ‘salute’
• Quick sudden vision…looks like TV static  – zig zag
• UPLIFTING feeling
• Heard “you need to go through this again”
• Attention to the throat

Thank ♥ You

TODAY’S NOTES may be connected to May 20, 2015 meditation notes (Theresa) and September 11, 2015 (9-11) meditation notes (Terry/Williams).

A Spiritual Journey | September 6, 2015

Tuscan Countryside, Italy

Finding Jocelyn Turner…

This morning as I prepare to  meditate my thoughts return to Jocelyn Turner – and the potential connection. A connection for her…. with her mom.

But… I do not  know Jocelyn Turner. And I did not know Jocelyn Turner’s mother. But I do connect with this story. The minute I discovered it I knew, in my heart… and because a chill went through me as goosebumps permeated my skin  [and maybe I should start referring to these goosebumps as ‘angelbumps‘ – since they are happening quite frequently ☺].

Anyway – the story connects with many things I have tuned-in to during meditation. Some things familiar….about many children,  mommy leaving, mommy’s your daddy And the circumstances of mom’s passing. message is there….to Jocelyn from her mom. This I KNOW.  And I will need to trust I will be guided on what to do.

Today’s Meditation Notes 


‘she almost did’ – ‘lose a child’
• ‘it’s all about trust’
9/6..something about today’s date…[maybe ’96?]
J-name (like JoAnne)
• Feeling of falling forward – face first
‘better finish the bottle’
• (numbers) 10, 52
•something about ‘all the way’
Arletha ♫Ar-lee-tha♪   (Spirit Guide – helping me ♥)…the children
‘looking up’
• ‘detox’

Still working through the SYMBOLISM

A Little about My Spirit Guide Arletha…

I was introduced to Arletha (Letha) in September of 2014. She is my African-American Spirit Guide. In December 2014 she began popping in on my meditation practice frequently…and I was able to learn more about her.  Arletha helps me focus on my breathing during meditation. She typically stays in the shadows and has a connection with ‘the cats’. She also has a connection to ‘the children’…AND  has been helping me with the Jocelyn Turner connection .

Reference Dates: Sept 3, 2014; Dec 5, 2014; Dec 9, 2014; Dec 13, 2014; Dec 24, 2014; Feb 4,2015;

Spiritual Journal August 17, 2015

 Monday: Back to School

The weather is very hot and humid again. We really need some ☂ rain. My autumn mums are already blooming, but they don’t ☹look happy . And it is back-to-school time for the kids… cannot believe it is that time again already. With all I have been learning lately – it almost feels like I am back in school as well!

Meditation Notes:

• ‘parallel
• Top of head – itchy!
B-name (like Bonnie)
• ‘retirement
• song lyric ♫ living on the edge ♪  (Aerosmith)
• Left side of chest – across heart, like ‘a pledge
• ‘escalade
conversation with mom
• Way ‘out there
• ‘Hannah’ or H-name
• left ear canal – tickles
• right hand aches – right shoulder aches
• ‘tried to tell you
Vision: people crossing a street (with hills)….red pickup truck with leaves/tree branches in the bed of the truck –truck speeds up as if trying to hit the people crossing the street
• Attention to left side of face
Top of right hand – achy …like from an IV
‘can’t pay for services rendered
• Feels like will or can do something
‘overtime’ [could be over time]

So – I assumed ‘escalade’ was just the automobile. Okay – stop laughing and read on…

Escalade | Define Escalade

noun 1. a scaling or mounting by means of ladders, especially in an assault upon a fortified place. verb (used with object), escaladed, escalading. 2. to mount, pass, or enter by means of ladders.

Hmmm – okay, as in escalator then?  ⏚

Word Origin and History for escalator n. 1900, American English, trade name of an Otis Elevator Co. moving staircase, coined from escalade + -ator in elevator. Figurative use is from 1927.

Source: Dictionary.com

More Pretty Words.

Spiritual Journal August 12, 2015

stockvault-glass-of-water134666WEDNESDAY: WATER

Woke up this morning and stretched…and ended up with a Charlie-horse in my left calf. Oh, the pain! ∈ Immediately thought – I must need to drink more water.  AGUA.

“Go with the flow, and let the symbolism of water ride on your waves of contemplation.” Source: Symbolism of Water

Meditation Notes:
Kim [or K-name]
• Feels like can’t catch my breath
• Song lyric comes in …♫ comes from up above… are you ready for a thing called love?”♪ [B. Raitt] (Yes! I am)
• Smiling now – peaceful feeling
• Attention to tongue….‘use your voice
• ‘But listen!‘ (being repeated) GUIDANCE
• Feel sorrow now
• Feeling of slowly going backward
• Vision: Words – typed words in purple, a sentence…THIS IS AN INSTANTLY….(some word)…MESSAGE < I think [tried really hard to focus in and read it but couldn’t see the last two words clearly]
• Vision: elevator door….black (walls?) – white (frame) – blue (door)


I knew exactly what this vision of the elevator door symbolized as soon as I reviewed my notes. The elevator symbolizes the  transition between levels of awareness. Because the door was shut, I’m clearly not transitioning –  I’m waiting for the door to open.  And the color of the door – blue, represents the throat chakra.  I have to use my voice to open the door and get on the elevator. I guess my Guides want to make sure I get this message! ☺

Thank You.

Spiritual Journal August 5, 2015


This morning the name “Brandon” came to me….no reason…not even sure I was having a thought when I got the name. I do know someone  by this name, though – so I wonder why his name popped into my head?


Yesterday morning was an emotional time…filled with ♫ Sweet Emotions . Past experiences are being brought back into my life…forcing me to confront them…and to feel them  all over again. The fear, the sorrow, the despair.  I somehow knew it was inevitable.  At some point I would have to let these memories consume me – even if only for a brief time. But I understand there is a purpose  for all  experiences …there are lessons to be learned. So along with the emotions, I recognize how extremely grateful I am. Grateful for where I am today. Grateful for what I have learned. Grateful I am continuing to learn.

I meditated to help me through these emotions. To help me release them.  I don’t have to carry them around with me anymore.  ♥ 20 minutes of meditation…healing, balancing, releasing all that is not mine or no longer serves my highest purpose.


As I meditated I had a song lyric pop into my thoughts… a new one. It was ♫a shot in the dark ♪ (Ozzy)….then I got something about ‘tomatoes’ and ‘mom‘. Maybe I’,m supposed to ask mom for some tomatoes?  ☺



Spiritual Journal July 30, 2015

Thursday: Messages through SONG AND MUSIC

I’ve noticed random song lyrics popping into my head again. Frequently. And I know my Spirit Guides and the Angels communicate with me through song and music, both during and outside of my normal meditation practice. This morning the song lyric is ♫it’s gonna take time, it’s gonna take patience and time…to do it right♪ (G. Harrison). I think this is a message to me – from my higher-self. ☺

On Tuesday evening the song was Sweet Emotions…and in my head it’s Aerosmith singing (it’s not  in my voice  – it rarely is, even though sometimes the words are wrong ☺). But I’m getting just the words – sweet emotions – being sung, over and over. I know who this is connected to…and why I was getting the song.  Guidance from the  Angels.

This last week…almost on a daily basis, it is the lyric ♫hold me closer tiny dancer♫ (Elton John) . This is definitely connected to someone, but I’m not sure who…yet. I know my Guides are trying to help me with this connection (see July 23 – July 28 meditation notes).

Puzzle pieces

I started reviewing my journal notes (again) – this is helping me to put more of the puzzle pieces together. Every now and then I find a piece that fits. There are many journal notes I don’t post on this blog…because I believe they are private or of a sensitive nature to others…and because I am still learning how to understand them myself. These are the parts that are clicking though – the puzzle pieces that are suddenly fitting together. Still so much to learn. I need to spend time and focus my energy on continuing to look back. This is how I will learn. And grow.

Meditation Notes:
• A smell…like cardboard
• See colors…red and orange
• Attention to throat/neck
• ‘imbalance’
• song lyric ♫Desire♪
• ‘mom’
• Feels like moving over to the side…stepping over to the right…stepping aside
‘have to go to that place’
• Attention to ears (like inner ear)…then attention to knee
• ‘listen’…then ’not listening’
Vision: bare tree branches…but branches are white….look like they are glowing

stockvault-full-moon157085Tomorrow night is the Blue Moon.

I am ready!

Spiritual Journal July 25, 2015

Saturday – visions
Meditation Notes: 11:38 AM – 12:09

• the song lyric ♫Que sera, sera – whatever will be, will be – the future’s not ours to see♪ comes into my head almost immediately
song lyric changes to ♫Welcome to the Hotel California♪
Tom – or T-name
• ‘it’s okay to ask’
• something about ‘witch’, then ‘she’s a Wicca’, then ‘that’s a pretty word’
• Vision: as if looking above a house…see the top of the house…the roof line against the horizon
• ‘there’s a fire in the house’
• Something feels ‘uncomfortable
• (felt like a very long pause….silence, peaceful)
• Uplifting feeling – almost like an upward swirling motion
• Song lyric ♫hold me closer, tiny dancer♪
• Smiling – feel good, happy
• Suddenly remember an earlier vision [see below]
Hunger feeling
• right foot feels very distended…as if my toes are pointed down (like a ballet dancer)…the soles of my feet are very tingly
• The ♫hold me closer, tiny dancer♪ lyric pops into my head again
• I feel the uplifting sensations & feelings..almost like going up an elevator…the motion…it comes to me four times before I finally open my eyes, and know… I am done

Another pretty word…Wicca

I also got this word during meditation about one year ago (one day before the August 11, 2014 Full Moon). As I look back through my journal, I see an association to a name almost every time there is reference to  ‘witch‘ or ‘Wicca‘ – so I think I understand what this is about.

So, What is Wicca?  “Wicca is an eclectic religious belief system centering around gods, goddesses, and nature worship.  Gary Cantrell, a well-known Wiccan author says Wicca is based on “harmony with nature and all aspects of the god and goddess divinity.”

Read more here…

Source: What is Wicca?|Definition|Roots Are Ancient Agrarian Celtic Society

VISION…or dream?

During meditation today, I suddenly remembered an earlier vision I had – maybe this morning? Or yesterday? I know… does it really matter when? Well, the vision was of an outdoor stove …like a cook top. I remember my grandparents had one of these stoves, and would always cook on it when we went camping. And I also remember with this vision came something to do with ‘gypsies‘ – a feeling about a grandmother (dad’s mom) who may have been referred to as a gypsy.

So that was it – the vision that I forgot about until I meditated this morning…and suddenly remembered it. Now that I think about it, this may have actually been a dream I was remembering, not a vision?


This hunger feeling it is not a stomach hunger. This feeling of hunger expands through my chest (heart chakra) and down into my solar plexus. Just like stomach hunger, this hunger feels like food will satisfy it – but I KNOW I am not physically hungry when this feeling erupts in me. And it’s deeper than that. At one point I related it to (using and)  sending energy, but most recently it resonated as a feeling of love.  A hunger for more? Yes. Always.

a VISION today

I was floating on a raft in the pool today, enjoying the sun and the quiet, when I had a vision

I saw a child. A brown (or dark) haired child, laying on the cement along the edge of the pool. Actually. laying on (his) stomach with (his) head propped up by (his) elbows. He was watching me…and smiling. I think this was a little boy, but I’m not sure….could have been a little girl with a cute pixie-type haircut. ☺

Journal Notes June 28, 2015


As I reflect (or ruminate, as my hubby says) on this last week, it was a very active one, but it was ‘different’ in some way – like the energy was different…kind of just ‘all over the place’. And I think about the darn song lyric – I’m pretty sure I woke to every morning this past week….♫ I saw the sign and it opened up my eyes and I am happy now ♪. Okay, so this frustrates me a little bit. If I did see the sign, I did not recognize it, and I’m walking around with this feeling that I missed something. But if the sign is related to the missing step (yesterday), I should be able to put these clues together, right?

IMG_3516I do know I’m feeling a sense of creative energy these last couple of days. It was probably around the same time last year I started wood burning. So I organized my art supplies…and started thinking of how to re-purpose items to make them usable (or just as artwork). And I burned a lighthouse for the hubby…  even added some rubbed color to it. ☺ Feeling inspired.

Meditation Notes: 10:20 am
• Song lyric ♫ hello it’s me ♪
‘mom’ energy – from the right side, repeating
• Something about ‘in the kitchen’
• K-name
• Messages of healing, love, comfort, support (repeated)
♫Que Cera, Cera – whatever will be, will be ♪
• Feeling of ‘explaining’ it/something
• Heard “it’s quite alright”
• See many faces in candle aura
• Song lyric ♫ Cherokee people ♪
• Something about ‘money concerns’
100 bucks ($100)
• ‘clarity’

We are having a very late Spring here in Ohio. Lots of rain, storms, and wind….unpredictable weather that is more typical in April than late June. But it doesn’t feel Spring-like, it feels more like Fall. I remember getting days like this last summer. Maybe late Spring will mean late summer- with warmth through November or early December? I can only hope.  ☺

Journal Notes June 11, 2015

Thursday 10:40 AM

Today I set my intention for meditation to relax and allow.

Meditation Notes:

  • song lyric ♫looking for the man in the mirror♫
  • the vision of echo’s …there’s a message there
  • ‘aware’
  • ‘listen’
  • feeling of swinging – motion like swaying from side to side
  • dances/the feet/arms swaying in the air
  • feeling of happiness…smiling ☺
  • ‘mom
  • ‘Julie’ [or J-name]
  • energy sweeping up – from chest up through head
  • uplifting
  • feel ‘proud
  • ‘lightworker’
  • song lyric ♫”Let’s Dance”  [Bowie]♫
  • vision – red square box(es)
  • (soles of feet feel very hot)
  • feels like ‘I’ll give it a try’ – something not really comfortable with or about doing…like dancing
  • heard “a baby”
  • vision of some kind of green, spiky leafed plant
  • mom
  • wings
  • song lyric ♪but some of us don’t know why♫ [INXS]
  • happiness. passion. purpose.
  • they can never tear us apart
  • vision: big flash of white light…felt it too

END 11:18 AM

Journal Notes June 8, 2015


Deja Vu…..Connections…..Ascension 101….Spirit Guides

Spent yesterday with the family and friends at the sister’s pool. Sunday Funday! Thank you S&T…and by the way – Happy Birthday 🎂 again, Sister!

Today the weather is warm  – but the skies are cloudy. It looks like it will rain. It will be a good day to do the ‘indoor’ things.

Meditation Notes:

  • mom
  • felt nudge on left hip
  • vision: looked like a wood-slatted wall [like before drywall – bare]
  • attention to mouth – teeth, swallowing
  • vision: [looked like a] funnel cloud
  • heard “it’s moving closer to the house
  • J-name (Jim)
  • stay in the basement
  • (something) feels ‘familiar
  • ‘déjà vu’
  • calendar‘ – ‘events
  • June 2 birthday

[∞♂♀€ My Connection to this bullet…..June 2 was a Full Moon.  The first time I got a connection to my birthday was on June 13, 2014 – ALSO a Full Moon – during meditation I got the numbers 10 and 23. My birthday is 10/23.]

  • ascension 101

[Okay – so I had to do it. I Googled ‘ascension 101’….and here’s what I found :
https://ascension101.com/   and    https://www.facebook.com/pages/Ascension101/340920804286 .  Can’ wait to check these sites out….tools?

  • feel head pressure – like a balloon ready to ‘pop
  • list of 3
  • itching around hairline – [around] neck
  • listening….sounds
  • felt sudden energy from the left sweep through me
  • heard “hey” – sounded like from the left
  • vision: Native American – male – big white feathers – head dress
  • song lyric ♫me and Julio down by the school yard♪ [perhaps Native American has a J-name?…and feel like he may be connected to my hubby because the ♫ song ♪ is connected to him ☺]


I just remembered, as I reviewed today’s meditation notes, that just yesterday I had a major déjà vu moment – when I looked over into the yard and saw the little child laying on the ground  with a very pink baby blanket over top of her. It was EXACTLY as I had seen it in the vision I had during meditation on June 3rd.

Déjà vu, ( i/ˌdeɪʒɑː ˈvuː/; French pronunciation: ​[de.ʒa.vy]) from French, literally “already seen,” is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation that an event or experience currently being experienced, has already been experienced in the past, whether it has actually happened or not. Source: what is deja vu – Google Search