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MORE MEDITATION| September 29, 2015

A Spiritual Journey

Tuesday | 11:11 AM


• ♫LOVE is in the water, LOVE is in the air♪
• See a female with dark shorter hair and eyes – high cheekbones
• Love, healing
• Attention to the left ear
• heard “wont ever forget” (something) …(like God?)
• Attention to the throat
• ‘just closed my eyes and went to sleep’
• feels like ‘knew what I was doing’
• Feels like ‘can’t look at it (something)’
• Feels intentional
• ‘Five (5) things’
• Hear voices – 2 females talking
• “that’s not what it’s about” then “it’s what you’re thinking about” and then “that makes no sense”
• ‘interjecting’
• Attention to right side of neck –under ear and down
• D-name (like Dave)
• (asked who is D-name?)
• ‘the redneck romeo’
• Vision: a male –  looked like Gabe Kaplan (from the old TV show Welcome Back Kotter ☺)
• See the color green [represents the heart chakra]
• ♫what will I find?♪will you be there?♪Love♫
• ♫I saw the sign, and it opened up my eyes♪
• Hands/fingers ache
• heard “I’m sorry its taking so long”
• See LOTS of energy movement in the air
• Mild headache – across brow and temples
• ‘Greek’ / ‘Italian’
• Right arm aches
• Feels like people in the background, encouraging something on
• Vision: a big, thick tree trunk [see SYMBOLISM below]
• ‘all of them’
• ‘love’


…represents an inner sense of well being and personality. If the trunk is thick and large, then it denotes a strong, rugged and durable person.


Spiritual Journal | August 29, 2015


I hope the Full Moon tonight brings an end to whatever has been hanging with me this past week.   I’ve felt super sensitive – to EVERYTHING… and everyone.  This feeling of sadness  has now completely zapped my energy. But  I do realize there are things I need to release and heal…and I am  now ready to let them go.

Today’s Meditation Notes:

Saturday | 11:31 AM – 12:31 PM

  • M-name (like Mary)
  • Vision: the letter J (big fat letter)
  • Heard something about “wrapping up napkins”
  • Vision: a big blue book (looked like a dictionary)
  • ‘the eyes’
  • Headache
  • Heard “spirit” …then “vocations”  [another pretty word♥]
  • my arms are very stiff right now’….
  • daughter
  • ‘work it out
  • (long pause……..)
  • Vision: an older woman in a bed – like a hospital bed -bed is on the ceiling though – above me
  • something about ‘your accountants name
  • Heard a name with “T-S” initials…name came in LOUD
  • Felt like ‘it took all that time…to get (something)…’
  • heard “FLY!”
  • Attention to right arm
  • the number ‘14
  • Heel of left foot – prickly feeling
  • Something with the left eye…feels like a ‘wink’
  • Grandma
  • Pat – P-name – Patrice
  • Vision: the lower right arm and hand against something very white, like a sleeve – arm skin is dark, maybe tan
  • Right hand – all knuckles are achy
  • ♫they call me the working man♪
  • vision: a Disney photograph [it’s a picture of me and T-S!] ☺
  • B-name ( like Brandon)…another B-G name
  • ♫they call me the working man♪
  • Pain above right eye/brow
  • (uplifting feelings)
  • Hear whistling – nice tune – 4 beats (low-high-low-high) ☺
  • Attention to right upper lip
  • ’can you get there?’
  • heard “Bo”,,,maybe ‘bow’
  • Something about ½ hour session…only $15.00
  • ‘sneaky’ then ‘is it allowed to be?’
  • memory – about the Angels

END….I know who this connection is for. ♥

Yesterday’s Meditation Notes:

Friday | 10:15 – 11:00 AM

stockvault-sculpture168854• see a female – blond or light hair…then two Angels
• Attention to lower throat
♫hold me closer tiny dancer♪… the ‘highway’
• something about rings – wedding rings
Mild temple pain
‘your aura is PINK’
Vision: bride and groom – see very long white veil

Spiritual Journal | August 22, 2015

Endings and Beginnings

stockvault-path-in-nature124348Today I approach the last page of my Journal – Book #4. It feels appropriate…a new chapter begins!  The Angels are with me…giving me signs with numbers (like 33, 911, 1117) and  random music in my head.

♬  ♩   ♪  ♫  ♬  ♩   ♪  ♫  ♬  ♩   ♪  ♫  ♬  ♩   ♪  ♫

Today’s Meditation Notes

SATURDAY | 11:55 AM-12:30 PM

Abstract background of beautiful color smoke waves.• female  – young, pretty, dark hair
• Hearing music ♪ ♫
• vision: palm of hand resting on top of head
• feels like GOD
Left temple, mild pain
• ‘Lord, come with me now’
• feeling of much pain and sorrow
• ‘God will let you release it’
• Vision: a man’s torso with a suit jacket, shirt, tie….like a Groom (?)
• (BIG inhale)
Stopped writing and just let go….lots of visuals, words, and ‘pieces’ of thoughts (like sentences). Didn’t try to focus in on anything… think I just needed to let it flow through.


stockvault-mannequin-close-up113936During meditation today – after the music … from the Angels – I had a vision. I have noticed some of  my visions lately have feelings associated with them (or maybe they always have and I haven’t always noticed?) … like the vision three days ago – of  throwing my head down on my arms and sobbing – which actually came in with the feeling of deep sorrow. Today was a vision of the palm of a hand laying against the top of my head…but I could almost feel this…as if this was the hand of God, on my head. And with the feeling came the message

You are worthy. You know you are not perfect – and in God’s eyes – that is true perfection.

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Tomorrow I meet with a couple of friends from high school…I believe we have connections.

Julie and Stephanie…are you ready!?  ♥♥

Spiritual Journal August 17, 2015

 Monday: Back to School

The weather is very hot and humid again. We really need some ☂ rain. My autumn mums are already blooming, but they don’t ☹look happy . And it is back-to-school time for the kids… cannot believe it is that time again already. With all I have been learning lately – it almost feels like I am back in school as well!

Meditation Notes:

• ‘parallel
• Top of head – itchy!
B-name (like Bonnie)
• ‘retirement
• song lyric ♫ living on the edge ♪  (Aerosmith)
• Left side of chest – across heart, like ‘a pledge
• ‘escalade
conversation with mom
• Way ‘out there
• ‘Hannah’ or H-name
• left ear canal – tickles
• right hand aches – right shoulder aches
• ‘tried to tell you
Vision: people crossing a street (with hills)….red pickup truck with leaves/tree branches in the bed of the truck –truck speeds up as if trying to hit the people crossing the street
• Attention to left side of face
Top of right hand – achy …like from an IV
‘can’t pay for services rendered
• Feels like will or can do something
‘overtime’ [could be over time]

So – I assumed ‘escalade’ was just the automobile. Okay – stop laughing and read on…

Escalade | Define Escalade

noun 1. a scaling or mounting by means of ladders, especially in an assault upon a fortified place. verb (used with object), escaladed, escalading. 2. to mount, pass, or enter by means of ladders.

Hmmm – okay, as in escalator then?  ⏚

Word Origin and History for escalator n. 1900, American English, trade name of an Otis Elevator Co. moving staircase, coined from escalade + -ator in elevator. Figurative use is from 1927.

Source: Dictionary.com

More Pretty Words.

Spiritual Journal Dream August 14, 2015

Friday: The Airport Dream

I woke this morning from a dream. …one of those dreams  I knew instantly I would not forget. I knew this dream was somehow important – and as soon as I started replaying the details in my head – I understood. This dream is symbolic. It is about my journey...

The  Journey Begins

So…I was parking my car in an airport parking lot. This was not the typical paved airport parking lot –  instead it was covered by dirt and grass, reminding me of somewhere you’d park for a concert.  And this parking lot was a very far distance from the actual airport I was departing from. Well,  I parked my car at the edge of this lot, next to a tree-lined wooded area, and got out and began the walk to the airport. No shuttle service. I had to travel through four or five different lots or areas along my path to the airport – and at one point I even had to climb over the roof of a building to continue along my journey.

Destination Ahead

stockvault-airport-and-fog171753Finally, I am able to see the airport facility ahead of me. I am at the local airport (which is only about a 15 minute drive from my house) and am familiar with my surroundings. But  suddenly, I realize I don’t have my information – my ticket or boarding pass –with me. I forgot them!  I quickly decide it won’t be a problem – surely they can find my information in the computer system and print my stuff for me. So I proceed on and into the airport.

Waiting… or Not?

stockvault-travelers-abstract152592As I enter the main building of the airport I immediately notice a large group of people sitting, very still and quietly in what appears to be a waiting area, to my left. I then notice the airline ticket counters ahead of me, as well as the  roped off areas used to manage the typical airline passenger traffic.  The lines are empty – no one is waiting, and there are no workers at any of these counters. I do see one male traveler with a backpack slung over his shoulder at a counter to the right.  He must be using a self-service kiosk.

It is at this point stockvault-airport-signs174325I realize I don’t even know what airline I am supposed to be flying on. How will  I know which counter (or kiosk) to go to for my ticket and boarding pass?

A Helping Hand

Suddenly a woman, behind a  counter ahead of me and to my left, gets my attention. She motions for me to come over to her. She is so friendly and happy –  and wants to tell me all about her recent travels, and that she’s met someone and fallen in love, and she will  be leaving soon to get married. I feel as if  I must know her  – I am so happy for her and hug her tightly. She then tells me, in a matter-of-fact way, that my departure is not until  later in the  evening – at 11:30.


I immediately  decide I’m going back to my car and heading back home …I live close to the airport and there’s no point in sitting there and waiting  – I’ll just come back later.

A Chance Meeting

As I turn to leave the counter, I notice a gentleman to my right. He’s sitting in a chair next to the service counter where the woman had helped me. He is older, with white curly hair. I stop and look at him closely – I know him! I know his face. He was on TV.  As the woman from the service counter  quickly joins us – she says “THIS is my beau!” As I shake his hand, I tell him I know who he is and acknowledge him loudly by the only name  I know – which is the character he played on TV. I can’t think of his stage name – and I am embarrassed by this,  but am so happy and excited to be meeting him – and for the woman, as well!

Helper By My Side

stockvault-reflection-of-people-walking139542After meeting this gentleman, I turn around to leave the airport when a female, from the waiting area I first noticed when I entered the building, approaches me. We chat, and she joins me as I depart for my journey back to my car.

Leaving Stuff Behind

As we leave the building together, a  female airport worker approaches me. She wants me to know that, when I parked my car, I  left something behind –  my cell phone and some type of cable. She told me I left them on the top of my car. I thank her, and she turns away to continue with her duties.

Have Some Fun

stockvault-downtown-at-night128941Suddenly I am back in my car – with my female companion from the airport waiting area in the passenger seat. It is now evening, and it is dark outside. I’m parking my car in a different parking lot now. We proceed to get out of the car and walk.not sure where we we’re going,  but our attire implies we are going out clubbing ☺ and  we are intending to have fun.

Feeling Protected

As we walk along the sidewalk – there is a male, standing  in the shadows against a building, to my left. He motions or calls out to me – and I go over and chat with him for a while (again -I feel as if I must have known him) before I depart to rejoin my female companion, who is waiting for me.

Fear of The Unknown

My companion and I then realize there are three males behind us – calling out to us. We don’t know who these men are –  and  we get a little nervous because we are in an unfamiliar area – so  we decide it would be a good idea to go back and get in the car.

As we turn around to go back to where my car is parked,  I  realize we are now  being chased by these three males. We begin to run, going down a stone stairwell to get back to the parking lot below. I’m  not sure exactly where the car is parked, but  I quickly find it parked right next to another which was similar to mine.


As I dash to my driver side door – I notice the similar car next to mine with lights on, engine running,  and the passenger door wide-open. I quickly glance into the passenger side of this car as I open my own car door. It appears this car has suffered a minor collision with the car next to it. But the car is empty, as if it’s been abandoned. There are no people aroundanywhere.

Facing Fear

I jump into my car as my female companion hurries around to the passenger side – yelling for me to lock my car door. I slam my stockvault-bike---repco-challenger108323hand down onto the door lock –  but before my companion can get into the car, two of the males who have been chasing us jump into the car and climb over top of me and the front seats to get into the back seat of the car. And the third male is taking a bicycle out of the trunk of my car.

I’m now driving somewhere – with the two males in the backseat, the female by my side, and the third male following closely behind on the bicycle. I am not afraid – I don’t feel threatened. And again – now I feel like I must know these guys.

Overcoming Obstacles

And suddenly I am no longer in my car – but am back on the path on my way to the airport . But I am running this time. I am back on the roof of the building. The roof  is covered with some plastic material embedded with large rocks. I have to use my hands to help balance myself as I ‘climb‘ over it. I get to the edge of the roof and realize I must jump. I notice a couple of other travelers quickly navigating the roof and safely  jumping down from the roof’s edge to get to the next lot.

I Can Do This

I know I can do this – but it seems like it is a steeper jump from where I am standing.  But I bend down and grab onto the edge of the roof – and let my body swing over the side.  I’m now hanging off the roof against the side of the building. I look down. It’s really not that far down – probably only four or five feet. I have no fear. I’m not worried that I will break any bones or hurt myself to the point I can’t continue on – so I let go…..

Then I woke up.

Spiritual Journal August 11, 2015


11:17 AM: This morning I went outside and grounded for about an hour…watered all of the potted plants and the flower beds. ☼ When I finished, I sat down and prayed for healing energy for those in need. There are a few people who especially need healing right now – and I know I was supposed to pray for them.

As I prepare now to meditate – taking a moment to think about my day, the word ‘agua‘ comes to me. Water. But in Spanish?

Breathe. Balance. Anchor. Protect. Pray. Love. Light. Ask.

Meditation Notes:

• song lyric ♫ your love keeps lifting me higher and higher ♪
‘preconceived’….’notions’ [another pretty word]
• Something ‘didn’t come in that way’
• Vision: clover….a ’shamrock’
‘that was then, this is now’
• Vision: a closed eye with very long eyelashes
K-name…like Kaylee(?)
• Vision: face of a female…(black and white – no color)
• Vision: a fork (the eating utensil)….looked like it was stuck in a cloud
• Smiling – feel happy
• UPLIFTING – like an explosion from my shoulders through my head
• Vision: pretty lavender plant


IMG_CATPAWS….Mittons (the cat) is meowing intently at me from outside my bedroom door. I swear – it sounds like he is saying “hel-loooo”…then either “Bob” or “mom” ☺. I really need to try to record him doing this! Did get a cute pic of his paws under my bedroom door. He really wanted to come in!

Spiritual Journal July 27, 2015

MONDAY: Practicing Gratitude

10:22 AM: Feeling so blessed right now…at this very moment. My life feels FULL.  Thank you. ♥♥♥

Meditation Notes:
• ‘I am ready!’ – feels playful
•  C-name (female – like Cheryl)
B-name….sounds like, but with a U-name (female)
B-name (male)
• a feeling of meeting someone for the first time  
• a ‘welcoming’ feeling
C-name (like Chris)
• Vision: a bunch of people – women; busy…buzzing around…preparing (for something?)
• Sudden sharp pain right temple
• Feeling like a rope around throat – very mild pressure
Vision: a ‘New York’ license plate
• the word ‘orange’ – also seeing the color
Vision: 2 (big & curved)
• sudden floating feeling
• ‘one step ahead
• Feels like I’m going to sneeze…like a pepper sneeze! (didn’t ☺)
• See lots of faces appearing in the candle aura…one looks like a monkey
• K-name (female)
• G-name (female)
Left arm – mild ache
• Smiling (feel happy)
‘I’m here’
• K-name (female)
‘My dad
• Big smile! – feel happy! ☺
• Feel pulsing on left side of back…almost like ‘poking’
• (Hear very high-pitched tone in left ear)
• Vision: a photo of 2 females…friends
• Heard “been up here a long time”
• Feels like I can’t keep my eyes open…just want to sleep
• Heard “pricing”
• Feel tingle on right knee
• (I now release’ – my closing ritual just went through my head. Must be time to be done!)

It felt like I had a lot of guests today…one after another… after another. ♥♥♥


Spiritual Journal July 19, 2015


CandleToday I could not relax for meditation, so I ended up laying down – on my side – across the bed. I could still gaze at the candle burning at the edge of the dresser.


Meditation Notes 11:56 AM -12:40 PM

  • Julie [or J-name]
  • Cancer survivor
  • ‘Up and down’ feeling (motion)
  • vision: female…jumping into a pool
  • Hearing song and lyric ♫ they’ll be music everywhere ♪
  • vision: two guys –look like cowboys – slow dancing together, but doing ballet-like moves (funny – making me smile, chuckle)
  • Hearing song lyric ♫ why don’t you give love, give love… ♪ (from a song by Queen)
  • M-name
  • Heard “I got this cancer thing and it ruined my life”
  • (at this point I  took a break for prayer † †)
  • Vision: a guy pulling a dog on a leash (yes, pulling)
  • Attention to throat (like scratchy)




Journal Notes June 29, 2015


The sun ☼ was in and out yesterday, but back again shining brightly this morning. This lasted until around noon, when the sprinkly rain started. It is now (1:07 PM) gloomy outside, and only 66°. Meditation calls….

Well, Sky (the cat) insisted on being on the bed with me, nudging each of my arms and then nudging the journal right off of my lap so she could claim her spot there. She never sits on my lap, but today she is insistent.

Meditation Notes:
• ‘my grandpa….’
• Something about ‘chasing those girls downstairs’
• Feels like somebody (female) yelling
• Heard “no!”
• ‘in Bethlehem Township’

END….that was weird.

Journal Notes June 9, 2015


Woke up this morning at 4:44 am. Wonder why I looked at the clock? I must have needed the message this number carries with it…

⌘ “The message of the 444 Angel Number sequence is that you have nothing to fear … all is as it should be, and all is well. Things that you have been working on or with will be successful.” Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: Angel Numbers – Number Sequences – Repeating 4’s 

Meditation Notes:

  • she’s‘….(& felt – female)
  • attention to back of left leg – calf
  • ‘last call’  [see also June 6]
  • S-name
  • sweeping down face – from above right brow down into heart
  • feeling of ‘depression
  • anxious feeling – through chest/upper body
  • pressure in ears – mild pounding
  • (thought about the Solsbury Hill ♫ song – wonder what year? then wonder why I am wondering this?)
  • feels like bright light (sunshine) to the left
  • very cool breeze sweeps over me
  • ‘up too fast
  • nauseous feeling – sternum area – might have to throw up :-[
  • heard “oh, absolutely”
  • feels like someone ‘changing the subject’
  • arms feel very heavy….‘burden’
  • (pause)
  • ♫Solsbury Hill ♪ song/music
  • attention to the feet
  • felt ‘nudge’ back of left shoulder
  • ‘don’t look down, look up’ -GUIDANCE? {TY}
  • feeling of sadness (asked to release this)
  • ‘shifting’ sensation ‘over and up’ from heart up across throat then to crown
  • feel tremor through upper body
  • ‘grew up early’
  • felt like ‘scowl’ [facial expression]
  • feeling of ‘disgust’
  • vision: pretty green plant with streaks of purple on leaves
  • heard “consciousness
  • heard “a thought
  • feels like playing charades with others [this feeling is becoming more common – and I have noted it at least 5 times since March]
  • heard “something to do with it”
  • vision of ‘echos‘ (?) – but feels off – like they are random/sporadic – here and there -as they pop up
  • heard “I’m getting confused here”  – female sounded like a NY/NJ accent
  • heard “ghost”...then “town”
  • heard “dark hairspray”
  • feel pressure against sternum
  • heard “I kinda just stood there…I couldn’t move”
  • heard “in theory…not a ghost” then “not a ghost anymore”
  • J-name
  • ‘10,000’….’earrings’ (?)
  • ‘bastardization’  [is this EVEN a word?!? and why?? I don’t like it!]
  • ‘baby born without a father’ [still don’t like the word!]
  • feel anger
  • heard “the size of him” then “up there”
  • ‘up on the hill’….’lights’
  • see periwinkle (color)
  • two people – not talking ‘connecting‘ them – feeling of intentionally forcing them to connect
  • feel very increased level of awareness


Wow! I meditated for almost an hour today – which is about twice as long as my normal time. I really felt an increased awareness the entire time…so I just went with it. But ghosts? Dark hairspray? 10, 000 earrings? And words I don’t like!?  …Really?

Well, I checked my journal notes – about wondering about things. I seem to do this a lot …both during and outside of meditation (I found the word ‘wonder‘ 40 times in my notes!) And I just noted this feeling of wondering on June 6th, as well.

There’s something more about the Solsbury Hill song that I am supposed to know…so I Googled it (of course!). The song was released on 25 February 1977 and first came to me on May 1, 2015… but  check this:

“Solsbury Hill” is a song by English musician Peter Gabriel about a spiritual experience atop Solsbury Hill in Somerset, England. Gabriel wrote the song after his departure from the progressive rock band Genesis, of which he had been the lead singer since its inception. The song was his debut single. Solsbury Hill (song) – Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solsbury_Hill_(song)Wikipedia

Source: solsbury hill meaning – Google Search