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AUTUMN EQUINOX |September 24,  2015

A Spiritual Journey: Thursday September 24,  2015


stockvault-autumn-colors102368As much as I love summer, the onset of Autumn has always been my favorite time of the year. I often wonder if this is because I was born in October? It seems like at this time each year I  feel a sense of rebirth… and an even stronger desire to balance my hopes, dreams, and aspirations with my actions.

The Autumn Equinox (Sept 23rd)  not only brings in the  perfect balance of light and dark, but it represents letting go (of the growing cycle). It’s a time to harvest – to look back on what has manifested the last year – and what has not.  How appropriate I would feel a strong connection to this  – especially this year.

For me, it’s a time to celebrate balance and invite renewal – so bring it on!

I have focused on my daily meditation practice these last couple of days on welcoming the energy the Autumn Equinox…

“Living in balance physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually is the root of energy and delight. Be merciful to yourself daily and make personal time and space to work with the energy. Give yourself time to reflect and connect. Practice aligning all the elements and Spirit into a unified field in your body.”

Source: Cosmic*Intelligence*Agency | Equinox Intention Mission Activation

“It is a magical, exciting time that comes but once a year. Celebrate Autumnal Equinox by focusing your energies to: Prepare for the winter ahead – Become attuned to the dark and the light within yourself – Create a balance that will carry you forward into the coming winter.”

Source: Autumnal Equinox

A Spiritual Journey | September 14, 2015



Over the weekend I felt this need to ‘prepare’ for the New Moon and the energy to follow. Remember, New Moons are the time of new beginnings. So I am clearing my space, dealing with some unfinished business, and focusing my intention on love, health, and balance.

This New Moon is especially significant because it corresponds with one of TWO eclipses this month!

Learn more about September’s TWO powerful eclipses at numerologist.com.

Saturday I smudged the house. This ritual was overdue and I knew it.  I can typically rely on my three cats to let me know when there is ‘bothersome’ energy around – and they have been letting me know for the last three weeks. In retrospect, it may have been a good idea to smudge myself as well. ☯

Read about How to Smudge here.

Today’s Meditation Notes:

  • Shooting pain  upper back of left leg
  • B-name (like Bridgette)
  • ‘neighbor’ then ‘wouldn’t use real name’
  • Hungry feeling
  • something about a ‘memory’
  • Attention to left arm
  • chills up legs
  • ‘nail biting’ (feels like someone does or did this)
  • D-name
  • sudden feeling of doubt
  • Pain across bridge of nose
  • ‘today is the 14th’
  • Mild headache
  • something about ‘auras’
  • Feels like I can’t focus
  • ‘water’ then ‘sign’
  • Top of left hand aches…and now brrrrr…I’m feeling very chilly.

Time to stop… and put some warmer clothes on. And probably should drink some water. 

Water Symbolism ⚓

“The symbolism of water has a universal undertone of purity and fertility. Symbolically, it is often viewed as the source of life itself as we see evidence in countless creation myths in which life emerges from primordial waters.” Source: Symbolism of Water

“In Tarot, the traditional Suit of Cups is the suit of water. It is receptive, a vessel, and a symbol of the deep, primordial unconscious mind and womb. Water shows us the images, or imprint, of things. Emotions, feelings, and psychic knowledge are all represented by water in the Tarot tradition. Water flows and changes, and it carries away what it cleanses.” Source: Water as a Spiritual Element

Spiritual Journal | September 1, 2015


Being Thankful

stockvault-rainbow-clouds143806Yesterday ended up being a really great and productive day. Thank You! It actually felt as if time slowed down for me.


I started updating my Book of Lessons. In addition to all of the lessons and guidance, there is symbolism throughout my journal…starting with the nostrils almost 2 years ago [see October 2013]. And I think I may have found Jocelyn Turner. But still so much to learn…

Today I meditated on the sun porch. The a/c is on inside – so it’s easier to close me onto the porch than the cats. Plus, good energy is out there!

Meditation Notes: 

11:19 AM-12:02 PM

• Attention to the left
Mary > bridge for others
• (allow me) ”to dance
• Vision – male and female dancing together
• Heard “no- I could see her doing that
J-E name (like John Edwards) [☺♥]
Dancing ……that’s Gretchen! [see May 14, 2015 and July 27, 2015]
• Smiling – feel happy
‘such a beautiful soul’
Played in Bedford County
J-L-name (like John Logan)
E-name (like Eddie)
• ‘I’m talking about country, boys’
• ♫your love is like bad medicine♪ keeps popping into the background
D-name (like Dan)
• Draft past the right shoulder
‘working on the grammar
Lungs – vision like a picture of the lungs
Allowing it…smoking
June 1st 
B-name (like Becky)
The 80’s
• feel vibrations…like dancing


Spiritual Journal | August 31, 2015




I have been waking again throughout the night …to thoughts, words, visions. Remember something about mom, and tomatoes (again) and numbers…a vision with numbers…like a house number… 3133.

Maybe there is a message for me with the numbers

Repeating Angel Numbers – 3’s and 1’s (31, 331, 313, 311 etc)

Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: Repeating Angel Numbers – 3’s and 1’s (31, 331, 313, 311 etc)

I woke early this morning feeling inspired….but now I’m suddenly feeling a little lost? Not sure why…I made my To Do list ☺. Think I will meditate on it…

Meditation Notes:

• Left leg – pain shooting up calf
M-name (like Mike)
• ‘It’s all about trust’…’Letting go is hard – but it doesn’t mean you don’t care’….’Heal’
• ‘dawn’
‘Eyes’ – reflections of things
Scratchy throat
• ♫your love is like bad medicine♪
• attention to right side of face
• Mild pain across temples & bridge of nose
Itchy feeling
• its ‘zapping your energy’
• Something about fake hair….how fake a girl’s hair is
S-name (like Susan)

Yesterday I meditated to Heal and Balance, and to release. I probably should have skipped trying to write during today’s meditation, because the whole thing just felt a little… off.

But today’s meditation did renew my inspiration. And  I have decided…finally…to get my Book of Lessons updated. It is a priority now. And  I think it is long overdue.

Goodbye, procrastination…. I’m ready to let you go!


Spiritual Journal | August 29, 2015


I hope the Full Moon tonight brings an end to whatever has been hanging with me this past week.   I’ve felt super sensitive – to EVERYTHING… and everyone.  This feeling of sadness  has now completely zapped my energy. But  I do realize there are things I need to release and heal…and I am  now ready to let them go.

Today’s Meditation Notes:

Saturday | 11:31 AM – 12:31 PM

  • M-name (like Mary)
  • Vision: the letter J (big fat letter)
  • Heard something about “wrapping up napkins”
  • Vision: a big blue book (looked like a dictionary)
  • ‘the eyes’
  • Headache
  • Heard “spirit” …then “vocations”  [another pretty word♥]
  • my arms are very stiff right now’….
  • daughter
  • ‘work it out
  • (long pause……..)
  • Vision: an older woman in a bed – like a hospital bed -bed is on the ceiling though – above me
  • something about ‘your accountants name
  • Heard a name with “T-S” initials…name came in LOUD
  • Felt like ‘it took all that time…to get (something)…’
  • heard “FLY!”
  • Attention to right arm
  • the number ‘14
  • Heel of left foot – prickly feeling
  • Something with the left eye…feels like a ‘wink’
  • Grandma
  • Pat – P-name – Patrice
  • Vision: the lower right arm and hand against something very white, like a sleeve – arm skin is dark, maybe tan
  • Right hand – all knuckles are achy
  • ♫they call me the working man♪
  • vision: a Disney photograph [it’s a picture of me and T-S!] ☺
  • B-name ( like Brandon)…another B-G name
  • ♫they call me the working man♪
  • Pain above right eye/brow
  • (uplifting feelings)
  • Hear whistling – nice tune – 4 beats (low-high-low-high) ☺
  • Attention to right upper lip
  • ’can you get there?’
  • heard “Bo”,,,maybe ‘bow’
  • Something about ½ hour session…only $15.00
  • ‘sneaky’ then ‘is it allowed to be?’
  • memory – about the Angels

END….I know who this connection is for. ♥

Yesterday’s Meditation Notes:

Friday | 10:15 – 11:00 AM

stockvault-sculpture168854• see a female – blond or light hair…then two Angels
• Attention to lower throat
♫hold me closer tiny dancer♪… the ‘highway’
• something about rings – wedding rings
Mild temple pain
‘your aura is PINK’
Vision: bride and groom – see very long white veil

Spiritual Journal August 11, 2015


11:17 AM: This morning I went outside and grounded for about an hour…watered all of the potted plants and the flower beds. ☼ When I finished, I sat down and prayed for healing energy for those in need. There are a few people who especially need healing right now – and I know I was supposed to pray for them.

As I prepare now to meditate – taking a moment to think about my day, the word ‘agua‘ comes to me. Water. But in Spanish?

Breathe. Balance. Anchor. Protect. Pray. Love. Light. Ask.

Meditation Notes:

• song lyric ♫ your love keeps lifting me higher and higher ♪
‘preconceived’….’notions’ [another pretty word]
• Something ‘didn’t come in that way’
• Vision: clover….a ’shamrock’
‘that was then, this is now’
• Vision: a closed eye with very long eyelashes
K-name…like Kaylee(?)
• Vision: face of a female…(black and white – no color)
• Vision: a fork (the eating utensil)….looked like it was stuck in a cloud
• Smiling – feel happy
• UPLIFTING – like an explosion from my shoulders through my head
• Vision: pretty lavender plant


IMG_CATPAWS….Mittons (the cat) is meowing intently at me from outside my bedroom door. I swear – it sounds like he is saying “hel-loooo”…then either “Bob” or “mom” ☺. I really need to try to record him doing this! Did get a cute pic of his paws under my bedroom door. He really wanted to come in!

Spiritual Journal August 1, 2015


Had the sisters over last night to celebrate the Full Moon. We sat in the front yard – in a circle under the moon . We held hands and giggled. I believe in Magic…and I wished for magical blessings for us. New Moon Magic. I’m sure my sisters didn’t hear me though – they were too busy being silly. But that’s why I love them so much! ♥


My niece was also here for a while last night, and she said she had an experience while she was alone in my house. She said she saw ‘someone’ in the family room. Two ‘someones’, as a matter-of-fact.

She told me she was putting ice-cream in the kitchen freezer when she noticed something in her peripheral vision. So she glanced over to her right and saw what she described as a glowing light, like an aura – in the corner of the family room. She then walked over to the ‘coffee pot corner’ of the kitchen and just stood there, because she could see directly into the family room corner from this spot. She said she then saw ‘people’ – a couple, holding hands – sitting on the corner of the sectional (couch). She initially thought it was my son, but then remembered he was at work. She said whoever she was seeing then rose (as if a person was standing up) and waved at her.  She said she felt this was a male energy… but wasn’t sure about the other.


So…this is the same room, the same exact location of the ‘back tapping‘ experienced by both my son and my sister while sleeping on the same section of the family room couch. I think back now to prior meditation notes – from January (the date 1-23 to be exact) when I heard “better talk to him first for a  while” followed by ‘I sat in the living room and talked to the room’.  Is this the room  – and is there somebody here I’m supposed to talk to?


I have tried a couple of times (in the recent past) to connect with this energy in the family room. I’ve tried in the dining room, too. I know it is here…I can feel it. The cats absolutely can feel it as well. But I haven’t had much success connecting…and I think it’s because it still scares me a little. I have to fight with the pin-prick goosebumps permeating my body… I have to remind myself it is the energy causing my body to react this way, and it is not the result of  fear.  I’m still having a hard time separating the  two – but I’ve decided I will keep trying to establish a connection  with this energy – because I want to know. Who is here? And why?
So I  will ask – and my Spirit Guides will help  me. They understand my fear. 

Spirit Guides in my mirror!

Meditation Notes: 2:45 PM – 3:10 PM

Beginning meditation with Chakra balancing….Root, Sacral, and Throat.

counting: the number 6
Vision: looked like a lampshade (shaped object) in the middle of a lawn (grass)
• sudden memory of the first house I lived in as a child – the side yard – suddenly felt as if I was there (like a flashback)
• Ache under right upper arm
female: K- name (or hard C-name)

IMG_2905Decided to pray….for love and healing to all in need.

I want. I believe. I trust. I receive.  

And so it is.

Spiritual Journal July 30, 2015

Thursday: Messages through SONG AND MUSIC

I’ve noticed random song lyrics popping into my head again. Frequently. And I know my Spirit Guides and the Angels communicate with me through song and music, both during and outside of my normal meditation practice. This morning the song lyric is ♫it’s gonna take time, it’s gonna take patience and time…to do it right♪ (G. Harrison). I think this is a message to me – from my higher-self. ☺

On Tuesday evening the song was Sweet Emotions…and in my head it’s Aerosmith singing (it’s not  in my voice  – it rarely is, even though sometimes the words are wrong ☺). But I’m getting just the words – sweet emotions – being sung, over and over. I know who this is connected to…and why I was getting the song.  Guidance from the  Angels.

This last week…almost on a daily basis, it is the lyric ♫hold me closer tiny dancer♫ (Elton John) . This is definitely connected to someone, but I’m not sure who…yet. I know my Guides are trying to help me with this connection (see July 23 – July 28 meditation notes).

Puzzle pieces

I started reviewing my journal notes (again) – this is helping me to put more of the puzzle pieces together. Every now and then I find a piece that fits. There are many journal notes I don’t post on this blog…because I believe they are private or of a sensitive nature to others…and because I am still learning how to understand them myself. These are the parts that are clicking though – the puzzle pieces that are suddenly fitting together. Still so much to learn. I need to spend time and focus my energy on continuing to look back. This is how I will learn. And grow.

Meditation Notes:
• A smell…like cardboard
• See colors…red and orange
• Attention to throat/neck
• ‘imbalance’
• song lyric ♫Desire♪
• ‘mom’
• Feels like moving over to the side…stepping over to the right…stepping aside
‘have to go to that place’
• Attention to ears (like inner ear)…then attention to knee
• ‘listen’…then ’not listening’
Vision: bare tree branches…but branches are white….look like they are glowing

stockvault-full-moon157085Tomorrow night is the Blue Moon.

I am ready!

Spiritual Journal July 21, 2015

Tuesday Energy

A couple of days ago, and for first time since 2013,  I turned the a/c on in the house. It is set at a comfortable 78º – because it is summer and it should still feel like summer ☺.  And, because I refuse to have to wear my fuzzy socks inside the house during the summer months to keep my feet warm.

But still, even with the comfortable temperature, there have been several times over the last few days I have gotten the chills through my legs, followed by extreme goosebumps – which actually feel prickly hot. This feeling (chills/goosebumps) I have always associated with fear – but it now fills me with curiosity. To be still. To listen. Who’s here?

Today the energy feels more intense – well, actually since yesterday. I’m thinking it’s about a situation going on with other family members,  but I feel it here – around me, in my house. It is with me now as I prepare to meditate. I’m going to try again to release it. It’s not mine.

Meditation Notes: 11:50 AM
  • It’s hard to release this anxious, uptight feeling. It almost feels like fear. So I focus on my breathing – and watch the energy in the air. The air is full of pixels…and I see movement, like a wave of energy running vertically across the room. I think of all I have to do. It is all about FOLLOWING THROUGH. And I have much to follow through with – I know!

Moving forward….

Spiritual Journal July 20, 2015

Monday – Happy Birthday SJ ♥

I woke around 3:00 AM and lay awake for about an hour before finally drifting back to sleep. In the hour I was awake, I became aware of the ‘energy surges’ that have started again. Hot flashes, heat flashes, powers surges…whatever you choose to call them, they’re back.

It’s 12:22 PM as I sit to meditate. Almost immediately I get the Elton John song lyric ♫ It’s sad, so sad…it’s a sad, sad situation – and it’s getting more and more absurd ♪ – and I understood the significance of this song in my head.

Meditation Notes:

• Something about somebody ‘washing (his) finger(s) all night long’
• (sudden thought about today’s horoscope – feels important)
Vision: flower – Black Eyed Susan…just 1 [I have always referred to this flower as a Brown Eyed Susan, though ☺]
• Got the word ‘purple’
• Vision: like a fat block letter…capital V [maybe a roman numeral 5?]
• Song lyric ♫strawberry fields forever ♪
• Got word and saw the color ‘Violet!’…feel happy – smiling

Today’s Horoscope

I try to make a point to look at my horoscope every day, and because I was born on the cusp, I make a point to read both the Libra and Scorpio horoscope via an app called The DailyHoroscope by Comitic.

Here is today’s Libra horoscope, the one that feels important …. “You have set yourself a very lofty goal in your work life, Libra. Your ambition is strong, and you are a very driven and determined person. Even though you are surely capable of attaining this goal, you may have underestimated what it will take to get there. Beyond the connections you will need to make and the investment of yourself you will have to make, this will also require a lot of study and sacrifice. You can do this, but don’t do it wearing your rose-colored glasses. Face it realistically and with hope. The challenges will be positive if you handle them optimistically.”


Black Eyed Susan is the flower of the Solar Plexus. The Solar Plexus chakra is associated with personal power, identity, and sovereignty. Read more about Flower Symbolism here.

stockvault-rainbow-clouds143806Purple…or Indigo, and Violet: Purple is associated with the Brow, or 3rd Eye, chakra – vision, intuition, perception. Violet is associated with the Crown chakra – connection to creator, higher self, spirit. Read more about The Spiritual Meaning of Colors here.