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A Spiritual Journey | September 16, 2015


I have been feeling overly sensitive these last few days. Thoughts, feelings and emotions are surfacing that I guess I am supposed to confront. A little bit of sadness, a little bit of anger.  Choose your battles, right?  So I choose to release any sadness and any thoughts or situations which create anger.  And so it is.

I’ve been spending time interpreting the Airport Dream. I feel like I am supposed to make sure I understand what this dream is telling me.  I understand it is time to ‘let go’, but I believe there is more….lessons perhaps, or things I should be aware of.  So, I’m looking at the symbolism (which is basically the entire dream) in comparison to my initial thoughts and feelings about this dream. It is an interesting and enlightening process.

Numerology & Astrology: Connecting

Today I listened to the September Numerology and Astrology forecast on  numerologist.com (my fav ♥). And it’s all there… the information needed to help me  understand what is happening right now (energetically, emotionally, even physically). And the STAR  is even part of it! Funny, but this discovery gave me this new-found hope and inspiration.

And it is time to begin to embrace it for what it is!

Decided to take a break from my activities today, do a little journaling, and then meditate. Time check 11:11 AM. Perfect.



During today’s practice I received more lessons. About writing, And trust.  And inspiration. About being fearless. Things I am passionate about. Lessons about symbolism…like Mickey Mouse, Disney, and fairy tales, and the feelings these symbols invoke. Like Happiness.  And I was reminded there are two sides….the light AND the dark.  ☯

And finally, some guidance about the sadness.  I was reminded the sadness ‘makes you confront it, understand it, and then release it.’

And so it is. Thank You.



When noticing the Angel Number 1111 appearing, take notice of the thoughts you had right at that moment, as 1111 indicates that your thoughts and beliefs are aligned with your truths.

Source: ANGEL NUMBERS – Joanne Sacred Scribes: ANGEL NUMBER 1111

A Spiritual Journey | September 10, 2015


Went to bed early last night…my energy was drained. As soon as I closed my eyes I had a vision…another STAR symbolblack and white – outlined with a solid line and then a dashed line.

So what does this mean? ✮

Stars symbolize excellence, success, aspirations or high ideals. You are putting some decision in the hands of fate and luck.”  Source: dreammoods.com

Well yes, I absolutely am.

 Today’s Meditation Notes


• Attention to left eye
• Sounds like on the beach…waves, seagulls
Lower back pain 
S-name (like Sherry)
• Vision…red clouds against a dark sky [perhaps something coming to an end]
• Hands feel achy
• Something about the necklace…a ‘choker‘? [perhaps difficulty expressing self]
‘formalities’ …something about them
• attention to right cheek (pressure)
• Pain – back of right leg – behind the knee
• Feel like head shaking ‘no’
R-name (like Ray)…but  feels like ‘don’t want to’ (talk?)
Panic feeling – sternum
• ‘control’…head hurts/aches
• song lyric keeps coming in ♫red skies at night♪ [coming to an end]
• something about the ‘hands
• ‘Can’t NOT think
• ‘only good will come’ (thank you)
• feeling of explaining something…about faith, trust, perseverance
• Vision: a symbol…in black and white (looked like an X with a solid line across the top and bottom points…and a face toward the middle)
• ‘Black and white. No gray. Trust..
• number 14 

stockvault-sepia-grunge-sign---lighthouse143889MORE  VISIONS & SYMBOLISM

Know I also had other visions throughout the night. I remember seeing the  bare breasts…maybe mine? I already know what this symbolizes – I’ve even had a similar vision before. I’m feeling  a little exposed, perhaps?

And I woke to a vision…as if I was looking out of my bedroom window down onto my driveway…and a police car had just pulled into the drive. Not a township police car, but a black and white – like a sheriff’s car.

According to the Web site dreammoods.com, “looking out the window signifies your outlook on life, your consciousness and your point of view. It also refers to your intuition and awareness. You may be reflecting on a decision.”

The driveway symbolizes  “an end to your journey, or perhaps security and rest. Alternatively, it denotes your path toward achieving inner peace and finding your spirituality.”

And finally, the police car “indicates that help is on the way for you.”

I love this. I understand the visions… and why I am having them. 


A Spiritual Journey | September 9, 2015



The Labor Day holiday seemed to be a gateway for my life to become filled with opportunities.  It seems appropriate for me as the weather begins to change and Autumn fills the air. It is truly my favorite season.


I feel this need to stay connected with nature. It is stronger than normal.  So I have kicked back a bit in regards to my daily meditation practice.

I am meditating either outside or sitting on the sun porch. But I am focusing right now on me…. staying healthy, balanced and strongGrounded, anchored, and protected.

I am working through understanding the symbolism of not only my dreams, but  the visions and symbols I have been connecting with during my meditation practice.

I am reconnecting with some long-lost friends ….and making new connections.

 I am learning to trust.

And I am learning lessons, about asking questions to gain clarity – and about repeating what you hear in your own words to ensure you understand what someone is telling you.

I Am.

So until tomorrow….

Spiritual Journal | August 27, 2015

Sadness and the Sun

I slept until after 8:00 AM today –  but as soon as I was up and moving around a sense of sadness filled me…and stayed with me – stockvault-sunshine108979until I finally went outside and grounded it away.  And hello sunshine ☀ – you’re  back!

I’m not sure why I was feeling this heavy sadness…. was it even mine?  Seems I’ve been asking myself this question a lot lately. But I do know grounding ( and the sun) helped me release it.  And shortly after grounding – I  even remembered the dream I woke to this morning.  I can’t share the details of my dream – but I will say there was a message in it …as well as an ‘action‘ for me to take.

So …keep yourself grounded, stay in the light – and pay attention to your dreams. ♥

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Thursday |  Meditation Notes:

11:13 – 11:45 AM

• immediately getting the song lyric ♫I will remember you♪….then ♫ in the arms of an Angel
• ‘She has it’...the little speck of light and something about her
• Feeling shoots from center of my chest up through my throat
‘tried to tell you
song lyric ♫shine a light right on me♪ (“Shine“)
• Feels like shaking head side to side…feels like ‘no – don’t want to’  
S-name…. then ‘daughter’
• ‘come on – get up’ (as if get out of bed)
• (BIG Inhale)
• Papa….God… God is with her
•‘3 years’


During meditation today I was told about the messages I am connecting with… (the) ‘messages are not from you – but through you’.  Thank you

Then I was told…. Be ALL to One…You.   Balance.

Spiritual Journal | August 26, 2015

Bad Dreams and Symbolism

My friend A. contacted me about  a ‘bad’ dream she had. She said it really bothered her because it was about me. Well, after she relayed her dream to me I had to  agree with why she was bothered by it! But I quickly realized her dream wasn’t prophetic…it was a dream of consequence. And it was full of symbolism. As soon as I started looking at the main elements of her dream I understood this. And  as we  discussed the symbolism of each element,  A. could quickly relate with its true meaning.

I used the Website dreammoods.com to help my friend interpret her dream. And… I guess this is why I was in it!


Feeling ODD 

These last couple of day’s have felt odd. I wish I had a better word to use – but that’s it. Just odd. And this morning I woke early – more than convinced it was Saturday. What’s up with that? Maybe it’s the weather? Its feeling (and looking) a little like Autumn already – cloudy skies and all. Or maybe it’s the moon… another Full Moon is approaching.

Going to meditate now– need to balance,  focus and  maybe even gain some clarity.

Wednesday Meditation Notes

| 10:20 AM – 11:00 AM

  • Seeing a male…almost as if standing behind something
  • Bee sting
  • Something about ‘speed’
  • a boy version’ of something…..’gift
  • T-name (like Todd)
  •  J-name (like Jodi)
  •  a sour smell
  • Song lyric ♫ your love is like bad medicine ♪
  • Vision: from the beach – looking out toward the ocean – dusk – sun setting low – very pretty….
  • T-name (like Terry)
  • ‘please stand up’ – then heard “right there
  • ‘Memorial service’
  • (pause – nothingness)
  • Heard “your bonus check”
  • Heard “went into town for himself” < himself was pronounced very quickly
  • R-name (Ryan)
  • Heard “I’m telling you” then “grab that”
  • Heard “about a month and a half ago”….then “what’s that?”…then “you guys make him laugh”
  • Papa
  • M-M  (maybe initials?)
  • Heard “paper
  • (pause – nothingness)
  • ‘Giovani’ …. ‘last name’….’like Marshal’
  • daddy’s here’
  • ‘Like Stacy?’…then heard “are you changing the subject?” ….go back to M-MMadison – then spelling out the name...

END…okay – I’m still not doing well with asking for clarity. And I know… It’s okay to ask. But  really – I get so caught up in the experience I don’t even know WHAT to ask! And when I do…well, see the last bullet above. ☹

Spiritual Journal August 15, 2015

Saturday: Animal Totems

hawk falcon raptor bird
hawk falcon raptor bird

A pair of Red-Tailed Hawks have been visiting the area every day – sometimes twice a day. If I don’t notice them soaring in the sky above, I can hear them screeching (even if I am in the house). They are coming very close – perching on tree tops and telephone poles – or the  rooftops and chimneys of houses nearby.

Red-tailed Hawk Symbolism

“Red-tails are divine messengers meant to bring guidance from the heavens and ground the guidance out in the physical world.” Source: Red-Tailed Hawk Symbolism – Spirit Animals – Wild Gratitude

Dream…or Vision?

This morning I woke to another dream. I don’t remember much about this one – other than the ‘environment‘.  I remember what I saw, so this makes me think (again) maybe I was having a vision and not a dream? Well, whichever – the setting was at my husband’s and my first house (with the house number 1117 – I so loved that house!) . It was outside, in the yard. The entire ground (yard-grass) was covered with something – it looked  like bamboo matting.

Maybe I was just having a vision of  the grass as it really is right now – it has gone dormant, along with many plants and flowers, due to the lack of rain. But I remember hearing it was going to rain? (well of course – eventually it will). We need rain – we haven’t had any for many days! Water. Agua.  ☔☔☔

Meditation Notes:

  • teeth – front teeth
  • right side of face …cheek
  • song lyrics ♫ I think we’re alone now ♪
  • dreams
  • mild headache around head – across temples
  • S-name (like Sarah)
  • ‘connection’
  • ache – right side of mouth – now headache
  • something with the teeth
  • right side of mouth
  • ‘like you’ve never been bitten’
  • song lyrics after the boys of summer have gone ♪ [D. Henley]
  • right there
  • ‘might be a little pain and discomfort’
  • Heard something about “the drive-through”
  • ‘horses’ 
  • Vision: looked like a farm …a big  pretty green (pine?) tree with a white barn (or building)  behind it
  • Two D-names
  • ‘get your bathing suit on’
  • Feels like…awww – how cute!

End…have a headache and can’t seem to release it.

Spiritual Journal Dream August 14, 2015

Friday: The Airport Dream

I woke this morning from a dream. …one of those dreams  I knew instantly I would not forget. I knew this dream was somehow important – and as soon as I started replaying the details in my head – I understood. This dream is symbolic. It is about my journey...

The  Journey Begins

So…I was parking my car in an airport parking lot. This was not the typical paved airport parking lot –  instead it was covered by dirt and grass, reminding me of somewhere you’d park for a concert.  And this parking lot was a very far distance from the actual airport I was departing from. Well,  I parked my car at the edge of this lot, next to a tree-lined wooded area, and got out and began the walk to the airport. No shuttle service. I had to travel through four or five different lots or areas along my path to the airport – and at one point I even had to climb over the roof of a building to continue along my journey.

Destination Ahead

stockvault-airport-and-fog171753Finally, I am able to see the airport facility ahead of me. I am at the local airport (which is only about a 15 minute drive from my house) and am familiar with my surroundings. But  suddenly, I realize I don’t have my information – my ticket or boarding pass –with me. I forgot them!  I quickly decide it won’t be a problem – surely they can find my information in the computer system and print my stuff for me. So I proceed on and into the airport.

Waiting… or Not?

stockvault-travelers-abstract152592As I enter the main building of the airport I immediately notice a large group of people sitting, very still and quietly in what appears to be a waiting area, to my left. I then notice the airline ticket counters ahead of me, as well as the  roped off areas used to manage the typical airline passenger traffic.  The lines are empty – no one is waiting, and there are no workers at any of these counters. I do see one male traveler with a backpack slung over his shoulder at a counter to the right.  He must be using a self-service kiosk.

It is at this point stockvault-airport-signs174325I realize I don’t even know what airline I am supposed to be flying on. How will  I know which counter (or kiosk) to go to for my ticket and boarding pass?

A Helping Hand

Suddenly a woman, behind a  counter ahead of me and to my left, gets my attention. She motions for me to come over to her. She is so friendly and happy –  and wants to tell me all about her recent travels, and that she’s met someone and fallen in love, and she will  be leaving soon to get married. I feel as if  I must know her  – I am so happy for her and hug her tightly. She then tells me, in a matter-of-fact way, that my departure is not until  later in the  evening – at 11:30.


I immediately  decide I’m going back to my car and heading back home …I live close to the airport and there’s no point in sitting there and waiting  – I’ll just come back later.

A Chance Meeting

As I turn to leave the counter, I notice a gentleman to my right. He’s sitting in a chair next to the service counter where the woman had helped me. He is older, with white curly hair. I stop and look at him closely – I know him! I know his face. He was on TV.  As the woman from the service counter  quickly joins us – she says “THIS is my beau!” As I shake his hand, I tell him I know who he is and acknowledge him loudly by the only name  I know – which is the character he played on TV. I can’t think of his stage name – and I am embarrassed by this,  but am so happy and excited to be meeting him – and for the woman, as well!

Helper By My Side

stockvault-reflection-of-people-walking139542After meeting this gentleman, I turn around to leave the airport when a female, from the waiting area I first noticed when I entered the building, approaches me. We chat, and she joins me as I depart for my journey back to my car.

Leaving Stuff Behind

As we leave the building together, a  female airport worker approaches me. She wants me to know that, when I parked my car, I  left something behind –  my cell phone and some type of cable. She told me I left them on the top of my car. I thank her, and she turns away to continue with her duties.

Have Some Fun

stockvault-downtown-at-night128941Suddenly I am back in my car – with my female companion from the airport waiting area in the passenger seat. It is now evening, and it is dark outside. I’m parking my car in a different parking lot now. We proceed to get out of the car and walk.not sure where we we’re going,  but our attire implies we are going out clubbing ☺ and  we are intending to have fun.

Feeling Protected

As we walk along the sidewalk – there is a male, standing  in the shadows against a building, to my left. He motions or calls out to me – and I go over and chat with him for a while (again -I feel as if I must have known him) before I depart to rejoin my female companion, who is waiting for me.

Fear of The Unknown

My companion and I then realize there are three males behind us – calling out to us. We don’t know who these men are –  and  we get a little nervous because we are in an unfamiliar area – so  we decide it would be a good idea to go back and get in the car.

As we turn around to go back to where my car is parked,  I  realize we are now  being chased by these three males. We begin to run, going down a stone stairwell to get back to the parking lot below. I’m  not sure exactly where the car is parked, but  I quickly find it parked right next to another which was similar to mine.


As I dash to my driver side door – I notice the similar car next to mine with lights on, engine running,  and the passenger door wide-open. I quickly glance into the passenger side of this car as I open my own car door. It appears this car has suffered a minor collision with the car next to it. But the car is empty, as if it’s been abandoned. There are no people aroundanywhere.

Facing Fear

I jump into my car as my female companion hurries around to the passenger side – yelling for me to lock my car door. I slam my stockvault-bike---repco-challenger108323hand down onto the door lock –  but before my companion can get into the car, two of the males who have been chasing us jump into the car and climb over top of me and the front seats to get into the back seat of the car. And the third male is taking a bicycle out of the trunk of my car.

I’m now driving somewhere – with the two males in the backseat, the female by my side, and the third male following closely behind on the bicycle. I am not afraid – I don’t feel threatened. And again – now I feel like I must know these guys.

Overcoming Obstacles

And suddenly I am no longer in my car – but am back on the path on my way to the airport . But I am running this time. I am back on the roof of the building. The roof  is covered with some plastic material embedded with large rocks. I have to use my hands to help balance myself as I ‘climb‘ over it. I get to the edge of the roof and realize I must jump. I notice a couple of other travelers quickly navigating the roof and safely  jumping down from the roof’s edge to get to the next lot.

I Can Do This

I know I can do this – but it seems like it is a steeper jump from where I am standing.  But I bend down and grab onto the edge of the roof – and let my body swing over the side.  I’m now hanging off the roof against the side of the building. I look down. It’s really not that far down – probably only four or five feet. I have no fear. I’m not worried that I will break any bones or hurt myself to the point I can’t continue on – so I let go…..

Then I woke up.

Spiritual Journal July 25, 2015

Saturday – visions
Meditation Notes: 11:38 AM – 12:09

• the song lyric ♫Que sera, sera – whatever will be, will be – the future’s not ours to see♪ comes into my head almost immediately
song lyric changes to ♫Welcome to the Hotel California♪
Tom – or T-name
• ‘it’s okay to ask’
• something about ‘witch’, then ‘she’s a Wicca’, then ‘that’s a pretty word’
• Vision: as if looking above a house…see the top of the house…the roof line against the horizon
• ‘there’s a fire in the house’
• Something feels ‘uncomfortable
• (felt like a very long pause….silence, peaceful)
• Uplifting feeling – almost like an upward swirling motion
• Song lyric ♫hold me closer, tiny dancer♪
• Smiling – feel good, happy
• Suddenly remember an earlier vision [see below]
Hunger feeling
• right foot feels very distended…as if my toes are pointed down (like a ballet dancer)…the soles of my feet are very tingly
• The ♫hold me closer, tiny dancer♪ lyric pops into my head again
• I feel the uplifting sensations & feelings..almost like going up an elevator…the motion…it comes to me four times before I finally open my eyes, and know… I am done

Another pretty word…Wicca

I also got this word during meditation about one year ago (one day before the August 11, 2014 Full Moon). As I look back through my journal, I see an association to a name almost every time there is reference to  ‘witch‘ or ‘Wicca‘ – so I think I understand what this is about.

So, What is Wicca?  “Wicca is an eclectic religious belief system centering around gods, goddesses, and nature worship.  Gary Cantrell, a well-known Wiccan author says Wicca is based on “harmony with nature and all aspects of the god and goddess divinity.”

Read more here…

Source: What is Wicca?|Definition|Roots Are Ancient Agrarian Celtic Society

VISION…or dream?

During meditation today, I suddenly remembered an earlier vision I had – maybe this morning? Or yesterday? I know… does it really matter when? Well, the vision was of an outdoor stove …like a cook top. I remember my grandparents had one of these stoves, and would always cook on it when we went camping. And I also remember with this vision came something to do with ‘gypsies‘ – a feeling about a grandmother (dad’s mom) who may have been referred to as a gypsy.

So that was it – the vision that I forgot about until I meditated this morning…and suddenly remembered it. Now that I think about it, this may have actually been a dream I was remembering, not a vision?


This hunger feeling it is not a stomach hunger. This feeling of hunger expands through my chest (heart chakra) and down into my solar plexus. Just like stomach hunger, this hunger feels like food will satisfy it – but I KNOW I am not physically hungry when this feeling erupts in me. And it’s deeper than that. At one point I related it to (using and)  sending energy, but most recently it resonated as a feeling of love.  A hunger for more? Yes. Always.

a VISION today

I was floating on a raft in the pool today, enjoying the sun and the quiet, when I had a vision

I saw a child. A brown (or dark) haired child, laying on the cement along the edge of the pool. Actually. laying on (his) stomach with (his) head propped up by (his) elbows. He was watching me…and smiling. I think this was a little boy, but I’m not sure….could have been a little girl with a cute pixie-type haircut. ☺

Journal Notes July 5, 2015



It’s 2:34 PM as I prepare to meditate and glance at the bedside clock . I am noticing more Angel Numbers again – like 1234, 1117, 333, 911. And yesterday the cats brought our attention to  a dragonfly, which has made its way into the house and decided to explore the sun porch.

Dragonfly Totem & Spirit Animal | Meaning

“The dragonfly totem carries the wisdom of transformation and adaptability in life. As spirit animal, the dragonfly is connected to the symbolism of change and light. When the dragonfly shows up in your life, it may remind you to bring a bit more lightness and joy into your life. Those who have this animal as totem may be inclined to delve deep into their emotions and shine their true colors.”

Source: Dragonfly Totem & Spirit Animal | Meaning

Today I created…. with a few cans of spray paint, an unused side table, and some dried flower stalks. ☻ Going to meditate now – with no intention other than to ‘relax and allow‘. Whatever is for my best purpose. And so it is. ∞ ∞ ∞

Meditation Notes:
• song lyric ♫too much time on my hands♪ [my hubby even said these exact words to me today!]
Vision: of a bird…a robin
Vision: black, white, and turquoise – looked like artwork
• ‘aqua’
• Feel ‘fear’ – like fear of losing a child : (
• Something about ‘not what’s expected’
• ‘swimming pool
• Felt shift UP
• ‘much to do’
• Brief pain – left side of stomach
• sudden thoughts/memories of  my first house…

….our next-door neighbor, she was a nurse… then remember going through the house after we had moved out of it, and new owners had moved in. I remember walking through the house. I felt like an intruder, and the house felt so small…and cluttered…and it just had a very different energy. I remember doing this – and how it made me feel. But I don’t think it really happened... I think it was a dream. One of those house dreams. Why am I suddenly remembering this? And I’m getting a feeling – as if I’m going back there now (?)

END…wondering if the memories about my first house are actually a message to me about ‘going back’ to work? And then there was the vision of the robin…


Robin – A Message from one of our Spirit Animals

“To see a robin in your dream (or visions) represents new beginnings. It is a time for growth. You are feeling invigorated and inspired by the possibilities that are out there for you. Alternatively, a robin signifies self-sacrifice.”

Source: Robin – A Message from one of our Spirit Animals


The scrolls have appeared to me during meditation on four occasions, most recently on June 23rd, and the tattoos – twice.. August 2014  and also on June 23rd. I suddenly feel like they must have some meaning…perhaps they are symbolic?

Here are a few links for what I found online…

“Books and Scrolls (Symbolism) For the purpose of this article, Books and Scrolls refer to those writings which preserve ancient and timeless Truth, Wisdom and knowledge regardless of what time period in our history they may have been written. Books are the modern day counterparts of Scrolls. Therefore, their purpose, function and Symbolism is similar. Books and Scrolls are vehicles which record and perpetuate Truth, Wisdom and knowledge for the benefit of both current and future generations.”

Source: A Seeker’s Thoughts: Books and Scrolls (Symbolism)

“A scroll, as the original form of the book, is a symbol of learning, enlightenment, communication, and sacred writings.”

Source: symbolism of scrolls | Matrignosis: A Blog About Inner Wisdom

“A scroll is a historical form of information. Dreaming of a scroll indicates that you have had a hidden understanding about yourself. The scroll could also indicate a new understanding.”

Source: Scroll Dream Dictionary: Interpret Now! – Auntyflo.com

“Scroll: The scroll symbol meanings deal with knowledge that is carried down from era to era. Scrolls are symbols of ancient wisdom and sacred knowledge – usually of a secretive nature. When the scroll flashes at you in a reading it is time to get in touch with the facts that are hidden – get to the source of knowledge and educate yourself about what is going on in the situation pertaining to the reading.”

Source: Symbol Meanings of the Tarot (S – Z)

“a tattoo is often a symbol of a story that is waiting to be told”

Source: The Deeper Meaning of Tattoos

Okay – it makes perfect sense now.