4:04 PM…late day meditation for me. Balancing chakras first. NEW MOON approaching…. Getting ready!
• something about ‘judge’ – or being ‘judged’
• see the profile of a male… first with sunglasses on, then without
• getting name William.. or maybe Williams
• ‘Aunt’ … angel
• feels like someone (male) standing above a crowd and yelling out…”is there anyone….who has a message….for another!?…”
• getting ‘The One’ then pain on the left side of head
• hearing the song lyric ♫dude look like a lady♪
• Pain under the left arm – armpit
• Pressure across bridge of nose
• Something about “my bridge story”
• Mary (for?)…then ‘names like Terry’
• Heard “K(name), that’s not right”…then something about “stuff on her GxxDxxx mind”
• “K(name) thinks everything’s gonna be alright”
• Vision – a sidewalk with diamond shaped pattern
A judge denotes feelings of guilt and fear of getting caught.
A sidewalk represents steady progress and direction in life…. or may be experiencing new walks of life.
A diamond shape symbolizes the many directions that you can take in life and the need to evaluate how to achieve goals.
A pattern may be a metaphor that you are trying to “pattern” yourself after someone you look up to. Or perhaps you are lacking your own identity.
This morning when I woke I saw a message on my cell phone from my sister… sent last night (August 23rd) at 10:31 PM. A life-long friend of her family died in an automobile accident. I am saddened by the unexpected loss of this young life (he just celebrated his 30th birthday) – and for the devastation of his family and friends. I pray now for their strength and healing.
Today’s Meditation Notes
• immediately the song lyric ♫love will rock you – never stop you ♪ comes in
• attention to the left or the right ….this is significant [GUIDANCE]
• Pressure…back top of head
• Feeling of frustration…as if happening ‘all this time’
• Feels like not asleep…just ‘pretending‘ to be
• (clear throat)
• Heard “speak up!”
END…I don’t feel ‘connected‘ this morning and am having a hard time releasing this sadness. As I open my eyes, I see the meditation candle has gone out. It’s okay – I am supposed to stop writing now.
The weather is very hot and humid again. We really need some ☂ rain. My autumn mums are already blooming, but they don’t ☹look happy . And it is back-to-school time for the kids… cannot believe it is that time again already. With all I have been learning lately – it almost feels like I am back in school as well!
• Top of head – itchy!
• B-name (like Bonnie)
• song lyric ♫ living on the edge ♪ (Aerosmith)
• Left side of chest – across heart, like ‘a pledge’
• conversation with mom
• Way ‘out there’
• ‘Hannah’ or H-name
• left ear canal – tickles
• right hand aches – right shoulder aches
• ‘tried to tell you’
• Vision: people crossing a street (with hills)….red pickup truck with leaves/tree branches in the bed of the truck –truck speeds up as if trying to hit the people crossing the street
• Attention to left side of face
• Top of right hand – achy …like from an IV
• ‘can’t pay for services rendered’
• Feels like will or can do something
• ‘overtime’ [could be over time]
So – I assumed ‘escalade’ was just the automobile. Okay – stop laughing and read on…
Escalade | Define Escalade
noun 1. a scaling or mounting by means of ladders, especially in an assault upon a fortified place. verb (used with object), escaladed, escalading. 2. to mount, pass, or enter by means of ladders.
Hmmm – okay, as in escalator then? ⏚
Word Origin and History for escalator n. 1900, American English, trade name of an Otis Elevator Co. moving staircase, coined from escalade + -ator in elevator. Figurative use is from 1927.
A pair of Red-Tailed Hawks have been visiting the area every day – sometimes twice a day. If I don’t notice them soaring in the sky above, I can hear them screeching (even if I am in the house). They are coming very close – perching on tree tops and telephone poles – or the rooftops and chimneys of houses nearby.
This morning I woke to another dream. I don’t remember much about this one – other than the ‘environment‘. I remember what I saw, so this makes me think (again) maybe I was having a vision andnot a dream? Well, whichever – the setting was at my husband’s and my first house (with the house number 1117 – I so loved that house!) . It was outside, in the yard. The entire ground (yard-grass) was covered with something – it looked like bamboo matting.
Maybe I was just having a vision of the grass as it really is right now – it has gone dormant, along with many plants and flowers, due to the lack of rain. But I remember hearing it was going to rain? (well of course – eventually it will). We need rain – we haven’t had any for many days! Water. Agua. ☔☔☔
10:25 AM: Spent a couple of hours yesterday with my niece – who is in the hospital. I wish I could heal her – but I know that I can’t. I can only reflect on all I have learned so far on my journey – and trust in the power of prayer.
Getting song lyrics ♫…and the tune – words are wrong – can’t remembername of artist
Woke up this morning and stretched…and ended up with a Charlie-horse in my left calf. Oh, the pain! ∈ Immediately thought – I must need to drink more water.AGUA.
“Go with the flow, and let the symbolism of water ride on your waves of contemplation.” Source: Symbolism of Water
• Kim [or K-name]
• Feels like can’t catch my breath
• Song lyric comes in …♫ comes from up above… are you ready for a thing called love?”♪[B. Raitt] (Yes! I am)
• Smiling now – peaceful feeling
• Attention to tongue….‘use your voice‘
• ‘But listen!‘ (being repeated) GUIDANCE
• Feel sorrow now
• Feeling of slowly going backward
• Vision: Words – typed words in purple, a sentence…THIS IS AN INSTANTLY….(some word)…MESSAGE< I think [tried really hard to focus in and read it but couldn’t see the last two words clearly]
• Vision: elevator door….black (walls?) – white (frame) – blue (door)
ELEVATOR DOOR SYMBOLISM
I knew exactly what this visionof theelevator doorsymbolized as soon as I reviewed my notes. The elevator symbolizes the transition between levels ofawareness. Because the door was shut, I’m clearly not transitioning – I’m waiting for the door to open. And the color of the door – blue, represents the throat chakra. I have to use my voice – to open the door and get on the elevator. I guess my Guides want to make sure I get this message! ☺
11:00 AM: Meditation is calling me and I am anxious to start. Suddenly, a feeling of sadness consumes me. I know immediately this is not mine – and I will ask to release it.
• immediately get the song lyric♫hold me closer, tiny dancer♫ in my head
• ‘just-like-that’…as if snapping fingers
• (someone’s passing) ‘quick’
• ‘you must learn’
• Feeling deep sadness
• ‘it’s not a game’
• worried feeling…about husband
• Feels like an ‘epiphany’…a ‘bright idea’
• ♫Hold me closer, tiny dancer♫
• Vision: looks like a ‘belt buckle’(something metal)
• ‘your house’… ‘sun porch’…‘good energy’ • Vision: like the x-ray of a hand
• Something about a ‘vaccine’ • feeling of Love ♥ • ‘it will come back’
• S-name (female)
• Joe/Jo [or J-name]
• Heard “you love him”
• Palms of hands feel warm
• ‘Pine cone’
• something about a ring …a wedding ring?
• Heard “there’s an aardvark”
• ‘it was a while ago’
• ‘tell her what happened’
• Smiling ☺ happy feeling
• Feels like ‘the silliest thing’
• ‘Noah’s Arc’
END 11:34 AM…Andthe sadness is gone. Thank You. ♥
A little about the aardvark…
Animal Spirit Guides | Miracles N Magic: AARDVARK
“If Aardvark shows up it means: Trust your instinctual senses to “sniff out” what’s right for you & what’s not. It’s best to be slow & cautious when starting a new project or relationship until you feel that it’s safe to move ahead. This isn’t the time to be particularly social but rather one to spend in quiet & solitude. Look below the surface of appearances & find out what’s underneath. Evenings will be most productive time for whatever project or creative effort you’re working on.”
10:22 AM: Feeling so blessed right now…at this very moment. My life feels FULL. Thank you. ♥♥♥
• ‘I am ready!’ – feels playful
• C-name (female – like Cheryl)
• B-name….sounds like, but with a U-name (female)
• B-name (male)
• a feeling of meeting someone for the first time
• a ‘welcoming’ feeling
• C-name (like Chris) • Vision: a bunch of people – women; busy…buzzing around…preparing (for something?)
• Sudden sharp pain – right temple
• Feeling like a rope around throat – very mild pressure
• Vision: a ‘New York’ license plate
• the word ‘orange’ – also seeing the color
• Vision: 2 (big & curved)
• sudden floating feeling
• ‘one step ahead’
• Feels like I’m going to sneeze…like a pepper sneeze! (didn’t ☺)
• See lots of faces appearing in the candle aura…one looks like a monkey • K-name (female) • G-name (female)
• Left arm – mild ache
• Smiling (feel happy)
• ‘I’m here’
• Daughter • K-name(female)
• ‘My dad‘
• Big smile! – feel happy! ☺
• Feel pulsing on left side of back…almost like ‘poking’
• (Hear very high-pitched tone in left ear)
• Vision: a photo of 2 females…friends
• Heard “been up here a long time”
• Feels like I can’t keep my eyes open…just want to sleep
• Heard “pricing”
• Feel tingle on right knee
• (‘I now release’ – my closing ritual just went through my head. Must be time to be done!)
It felt like I had a lot of guests today…one after another… after another. ♥♥♥
Time is flying by quickly again. I remember reading somewhere we each have the ability to control how quickly or slowly time passes for us. I feel like this has something to do with alchemy, maybe? Anyway, I want to believe this – that we can control time, but I’m just not feeling it. And I am trying.
It seems like just yesterday I learned of my grand-baby, but tomorrow I get to find out (hopefully!) if it is a boy or girl. Everyone keeps asking me what I think? I tell them I don’t want to guess… and respond with what is most important – ‘healthy’. Besides, I have already been told… “it’s a boy“. But I am not allowing myself to feel it… because something BIG inside of me doesn’t want to feel disappointed if the message or feeling is wrong. Not disappointed if the baby is a girl (no way!) – but disappointed I may somehow be influencing what comes to me. I want to allow myself to feel it. I want to trust.
My life is full. And I feel grateful.
Meditation Notes: 1:17 PM
• Attention to right breast • N-name
• The teeth (repeated)
• (had to clear throat) • ‘when you stop wanting to so bad’ • ‘every day’
• Feeling happy – smiling
• Attention to teeth – right side – cheek
• Sally [or S-name] • N-name • ‘Butera’
• Attention to aboveleft eye • 19
• Dark hair
• Felt as if someone walked up to me
• Heard “sorry it’s been so long” • Julie / Mary [or J-M name] • ‘wide open’
• Mild headache – also across bridge of nose – feels like pressure
• S-B name • ‘both’
• Heard “there’s (few or two) things I wanted to say to you”
• hear a very high pitched tone in ears
• Got song lyric ♫ hold me closer tiny dancer ♪(Elton John)
• Felt tingles run through my legs
Today I potted all of my Spider Plant starts… and I have a bunch! The corkscrew willow branch is cleaned up, debarked to its natural beauty, and ready for fairy lights. Creating ambience. Another pretty word.